Kungfu Panda

Me and sis went to watch kungfu Panda, hahaha, superb, it's so funny... i can't help and can't stop laughing till now... i love the blur blur look of his. and his fur, feel like running to the screen and just jump into the movie, and HUGGGGG him.... must be very comfy to hug him.

My TiBo

I have a new toy, this is it, my tibo A1200i, my very cool GPS system, ya? yeah!!!! I am gonna use it for my KL trip tomorrow, so excited.

I am not gonna miss any entrance anymore, i am not going to lost my way and ended up in some army camp anymore, i am not going to follow the 海岸线 and make a big round trip of singapore, just to get from Bukit Timah to Ang Mo Kio anymore.... yeah!!! I am the route expert now, ask me ba!!!

报告

u know, i went swimming the other day, after like so many years. so, i went swimming, well, it's only 4 laps, but that's enough to kill me, the next day, i really really feel that, i am just one huge potato, i can't feel my hands, my arms, my legs, so, one big potato.

My 'trip' to Sydney

New Born Baby

sometimes, u will just find yourself in a mess. The room is in a mess, the car is in a mess, the kitchen is messy, hand writing is weird, cannot talk properly, brain not functioning etc etc, and at last, u will lose yourself in all these mess.

This happen to me once in a while, i don't know the periodic time is how long, but once a while i will feel very very extremely lost and down, can just burst into tears for nothing, scold ppl around me for nothing. But i got my own way to solve all these sh*t of mine. Some ppl will say i am just giving excuses, but i know, i am NOT!!! ok.

These few days i didn't post, cos, i was busy tidying up myself, everything, starting from the room, then the drawers, clear all the pile and pile of laundry, guess what? my life was messy, everything messy, even my wardrobe collapsed, can u believe that? the whole iron bar fell off, so, i cleared the wardrobe as well, all those that i never wear anymore, pack pack pack and send them all back to KL. Throw so many things, till today, i am still throwing. but it's much better already, i don't feel lost anymore. I am in one piece again, I am once again a happy woman~~~

I am so lost

gee~~~ i am so lost recently, i lost my handphone pouch, i lost my vitamin C, i even lost my haydn piano score!!!! how can i lose that? i still need it, i need to practise for the masterclass, and now, I LOST IT!!!!!

i use another version of the score for piano lesson this morning, so not used to that score, so kena scolding from teacher, she thought that i never practise, but true also la, i really never touch the piano for 3 days. I even lost myself in this, i don't know how to play piano with heart anymore, my pieces left black and white only, no colours at all, no expressions, no feelings, sigh sigh... how?? someone help me, i used to be so proud of my expressiveness in music, and now, i lost all of them.

i cried just now, while listening to beethoven violin sonata, spring. i don't know why all of the sudden, while driving, i just cried. looked at the sky, it's dark, gonna rain soon, just like my heart now...

i don't know who to go to, i usually am the one that comfort others, i don't know who can understand me. gee... help me!! i am drowning.

你有没有那么迷失过。不只是心灵上的，就是开始找东西，好像身边的东西都躲着我似的，也不一定什么都真的不见了，有时候还是会找回来的，但是我的音乐好像真的找不回，不管我怎么练，它就只是一棵一棵的音符，一点生命力都没有。也不美，也不丑，但就是平凡。怎么都突破不了，怎么办，多一个星期又是class hour 了，然后月尾就是masterclass，我会有突破吗？

每次有这种感觉的时候，都会来个大扫除，希望把一些多余，没用的东西都丢掉，这次好像没有什么帮助，而且更严重了。什么东西都找不到。救命！！！！

7.30am 蓝色的飞机场

今天早上，飞机场是蓝色的。因为，我亲爱的老公被公司派去澳洲公干两个多月，70天的日子，我会好好的过吗？唉~~~

现在他在30000英尺的高空有想念我吗？还是忙着和漂亮的空姐聊天。。。 唉~~~

澳洲寒冷的天气他会习惯吗？不会病倒吧，会自己照顾自己吧。。。 唉~~~

蓝色的飞机场怎么变得水汪汪了？唉~~~

期待粉红色的飞机场，在70天后出现。。。

可爱的大师

我见到他了，认识他了。。。 他是王立达，一位我想认识很久很久的人，大师级的演奏家及钢琴老师。

当候老师告诉我他的种种，我就对这位大师起了很大的兴趣。希望认识他，让他在我的心中不再神秘。终于，昨天晚上，我认识他了，和候老师一起到他的家去吃晚饭。撇开一桌子的好菜不说（都是他亲手烹饪的，不敢相信吧！）他的性格真的深深的吸引着我，多么开朗的个性，多么幽默的一个人，太妙了，吃完饭，要离开的时候，是多么的不舍，踏出他的家门，门关上的那一刻，就已经想念他了，想念和他一起的时光。

我想，现在已经认识了，如果我坚持的话，以后还有很多机会向他学习。所以我一定要坚持走下去，我这条钢琴的路。

自然生态 vs. 专家

数以万计的蟾蜍，上演了一部‘大搬迁’，这个画面也许会让你感到不舒服，但是，这的确发生在四川大地震前的一个礼拜左右。

这奇特的景象，也确实让一些村民感到惶恐和不安。认为这可能是一次大灾害的预兆。

然而，请教专家的结果却是：‘这哪是什么灾害的预兆，这可是一种自然现象，因为这里的土质与水的温度非常适合蟾蜍的繁殖，所以它们才“举家搬迁”到这儿来。’

一个星期之后，四川发生大地震，这是巧合，还是自然生态给的预兆，有待思考。

my baba & mama... visiting

Masterclass

Gosh, i am going to Ong Lip Tat's masterclass in June, i really cannot believe this, can i survive thru 3 class hours and eventually attending the masterclass? I need to memorise the piece, gosh, my worse ability. My memory sucks~~~

But according to teacher, this is once in the life time golden opportunity, do i affort to let it just slip thru my fingers? I think i will regret for my whole life if i reject the offer, oh man, i am kinda excited, and nervous from my hair to the bottom of my feet, jia lat, i already don't know what i am talking about, i wanted to go!!!!!! but am i good enough? i am scared that mr ong will just stop my performance and chase me out from the hall, sigh, will that nitemare happen to me? or maybe i will be his fav pupil, hahahahaha, dreaming!!! not because i play very well, but because of my 无厘头-ness... haha, teacher once mention, we are so alike, she said i talk like mr. ong.

oh mama, i need to work harder, i need to memorise the piece man, ok, dictation starts tomorrow morning 7am. (only if i can wake up so early) as u know, it's already 1.48am, i don't think i can wake up at 7am haha, ok, maybe after my 10am student.

感动

刚上完钢琴课。。。本来就是一种压力，再加上根本没有足够的练习，每一次都是用混的。自己都感觉惭愧。老师是不错的，感觉上我的进度很慢，但是真的学了不少的技巧。一些以前都自己摸索的东西，现在是由一个老师来告诉你，哪里是对的，哪边是需要改进的，感觉不一样。多了一份安全感。

像我这种人，每天就是教教教教教。。。 没有时间去看一场音乐会，就算有，看了之后也没有人可以交流一下，根本学不了。但是，每当老师示范给我听的时候，哪怕是一小段，一页，或几个小节，都是一种感动。因为，马上就可以听出我弹的和她弹的不一样。倒不是我不好，但是就算是同一首曲子，因为表达的方式不一样，出来就感觉不一样。

今天，老师弹了一页piano sonata in e minor, 3rd movement, by haydn，是感动到不行的那种。她是怎么办到的？一个平时很严谨，严肃的人，弹起这种快乐的曲子的时候，就像小孩一样。我完全可以看到那个画面，蓝蓝的天空，碌碌的大草原， 天边挂着彩虹，五颜六色的花丛，活泼的蝴蝶，和一个活泼乱跳，带点小顽皮的小男孩，就是这样的画面。凭着这个画面，加上她指间流出来的音符，我的眼眶湿了，整个身体是热的，鸡皮疙瘩起得乱七八糟的。。。

我下定决心，必须把这首曲子弹好，因为我太喜欢它了。

The National Library

guess where did i go last saturday? tada~~~ The National Library @ Bugis

The Building, it's bigggg and tallll.























the iSouvenir, eKiosk and the computer. 3 auto selling, auto paying and auto searching machine in the library.

哪一个杯子？

有3个杯子，一个空的，一个装了一半的水，另一个则是装满了水，请问，哪一个杯子比较幸福呢？

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答案：CupB..... 因为。。。幸福‘没’满！哈哈

Half day trip

昨晚睡得迟，今天醒得迟。。。是一种恶性循环。醒来的时候，已经过了早餐时间。但是今天妹并没有tag着我们，所以100%的两人世界，从我们醒来那一刻开始。今天去了两个地方,

1) Orchard Road's Popular bookstore
2) VivoCity

我们是冲着Popular的搬迁大减价去的，20%的折扣实在是难以抗拒。我买了一盒铅笔，因为很久没有用铅笔了，就一并买了一个sharpener。当然还有一些有的没的。

这就是我买的那个sharpener. 我喜欢是因为它有一个盖子可以保护sharpener的刀片没有那么容易生锈，并且有一个空间能够把削出来的铅笔‘皮’收起，然后再拿去垃圾桶倒掉，很方便不是吗？ 然后万万没有想到。。。











然后万万没有想到。。。我不是买了一盒铅笔吗？竟然有送一个sharpener哩。就是这个黄黄的。然后，老公就骂我笨，怎么没看见就又买多一个sharpener.... 唉。。。 就在叹息期间。。。

Tada... 黄黄的sharpener 竟然fit perfectly in the casing... amazing right? so, i am not 笨after all
wahahaha.... ok, after orchard road, we decided to go vivo city for dinner, wanna eat the Hong Kong 茶餐厅。


<---- this is the prove, we really went to vivocity, (prove for what... sigh, 无聊透顶。）

<---- haha... saw this in one of the shop in vivo, 像不像翻版的小鱼老师呢? 我可是做了一些手脚，加了副眼镜，但是，pai seh la， 胸部实在是没办法，photoshop 可是没有什么iron function. 没办法把它们‘弄’平。















<---- they are cute too, from the same shop.

The birthday gal~

oh... just came back from jaz's birthday party, and here are the pictures i took, oh, this is call good efficiency or what, haha.

super 热闹， 都是jaz的同班同学。大家喊啊闹的，实在开心，我想是平时被繁重的功课压抑得太久了，待到机会就趁机‘疯’一下。

唉，这次还是被硬拱上去表演了一下，我想下次如果再参加这种生日派对的时候，真的必须准备准备。

回到家，开了电脑，就‘啪’的一下，倒在温暖的床上，竟然睡着了，真的是‘啪’的不省人事。然后和睡意‘打架’了一下，我醒了。here i come, blogging.

天空

没有下雨，没有太阳的天空真让人期待啊。但是这样的天空好像撑不了多久啊，果然，30秒内，即下。。。 哗啦啦的倾盆大雨。

A future doctor

My brother, a doctor-to-be, aren't you proud of him? sobz sobz.. tears of happiness are sliding down my cheeks, :)

my-signatures.blogspot.com

i've changed some elements in this blog, first, i added a picture, obvious right? 2ndly, cos the picture sort of cover part of my blog's title, so, i shifted it to the right site. &&&& i even changed the website of it, u know why? my previous one (dailies-me.blogspot.com) very confusing, even myself don't know whether got 2 'L' s or 2 'I' s... then one day, my friend said, hey, can't find your blog la, then i gave her the address, still cannot find... 原来 she typed 2 L...

so i 下定决心, must change the website address to.... ta da~~~

http://my-signatures.blogspot.com

Tiny Tunes

ok, i have this very good music programme for children aged 4 to 6, it's a group lesson that my teacher established.

can learn a lot of things in it, reading notes, listening, rhythms, orchestra instruments etc etc, like a compact programme, after this 2 years programme, children can go straight into individual lesson, piano, violin etc etc, and won't give that individual teacher problems like, cannot read notes, no pitching, can't hear music in head.

anyone interested? that lesson will be held in bukit timah road, time, monday 2pm. interested plz leave me a comment and i will reply asap, thanks~~~

My cooking day!

ok, today i cooked BKT. well, ok la, not very impress, cos i already used to the good taste of my cooking, wahahaha.... anyway, i got a guest today, jee jeen, my sis's friend. She came over for dinner, after that we fetched her home, cos she needs a car to send her table from the old flat to the new one.

The process of un-done the table was so hilarious loh, well, the table got 4 legs, hmm... obviously, but with that 4 legs attaching the table top, we will not beable to fit it into the car, so we need to detach the 4 legs, and each leg has 5 screws to make it attaching the table top, if we need to detach the 4 legs, we got to unscrew 20 screws. Tat's tiring, cos the screw driver given is like super short, very hard to use. In conclusion, it's superrrrrrrr difficult and a lot of hassle to unscrew that 20 screws...

after detaching 2 legs, which took like about 15mins, then we realised, oh, we don't have to unscrew those screws, just turn the legs, and it's detached. well, i know it's confusing, but actually, it's superrrrrrr easy to un-done the whole table, u only need to use approximately less than 3 mins, WHATTTTT!!! all of us, haw, mei, jee jeen and I laughed like crazy, stup*d right? gee~~~~ anyway, that's about it. sigh, i am wu liao...

me: i wonder why recently so many parents want to start their kid with piano lesson...
Haw: cos it's getting cold (weather) nowadays, keep raining...
me: ????? what's the relationship between weather and piano lesson?
Haw: cos when u buy a piano, it free with a heater
me: -_-!!!

Busy me..

哇，你知道什么是忙到要吐吗？？？ 你应该过一过我这种日子，驾车驾到要吐，已经驾到盲目了，就是到达目的地之后，再回想，yi? 我是怎么来到的？就是这种感觉，恐怖不？连自己怎么开车到达目的地的都不知道。课排得满满的。。。学校假期，然后补课补课补课。。。 永无止境的补课。。。 anyway... 我还是开心的啦，因为我喜欢我的工作，刚才以上的，都是一些唠叨而已。老公说，我有一份全世界最好的工作，这句话也无形的在鼓励着我向前。。。

再加上，最近jia ying 又喜欢钢琴了，他有一段时间非常排斥钢琴，他说，凡是和钢琴扯在一起的歌曲，电影，书本，感觉，一切一切，他都讨厌。我听了，真的非常痛心。一样我自己喜欢的东西，到别人眼里，口中，是这么的不堪，感觉不好受。如果换成别人，可能我已经告诉他的妈妈说如果他没有兴趣，就不用浪费金钱和时间，赶紧drop 掉会比较好，但是偏偏是jia ying， 因为他很有天分，我不舍得让他放弃钢琴，我想他以后一定会后悔的，所以我撑下去。

那天，他要换掉他的baby 钢琴，我陪他去选了一下，当他看见那么大的一间warehouse，里面全都是钢琴的时候，我看见他的眼睛里闪着光，兴奋得跑上跑下，这里试试，那里试试。我心里多么的感动。他还是喜欢钢琴的，他的眼神出卖了他之前的叛逆。但是那天，他没有买着任何一架钢琴。他的新钢琴是在另一家买的，今天去他家上课，他东介绍，西介绍，介绍他新买的玩具一般，语气里透露着兴奋的心情，我当下非常感动。真希望我能够让我所有的学生都喜欢钢琴。

心情0208

当你关上门，关了灯，电脑打开着，播着一些老情歌，一些陪你走过岁月的歌，手上的一杯热的中国茶，然后在思考一些无关痛痒而且无聊的东西，很享受，是不是？

然后，我突然记得，还有乐理功课，还有没改完的乐理，还有没练习完的曲子。。。 唉~~~ na ah nei~~~

忙碌的生活让我已经忘记如何去享受一杯热热的中国茶，每次喝茶，都是冲冲茫茫地把它灌进肚子，已经习惯很快的喝，很快的吃，很快。。。 很快，什么都是快的。快得不健康，快得没有效率， 快得已经停不下脚步。

其中一个鼠年的愿望，就是每天晚上，泡杯热茶，然后慢慢地喝它一个晚上。 然后把夜晚和白天。。。 分开来。白天不得不快的脚步，已经不可能再停下来，唯有在夜晚，把步伐调慢，拿个平衡，这样应该比较健康。

The CNY 2008

The year of Rat~~~

sorry for the BOOM in the activities in this blog, it's all because i abandoned this blog for too long and 神经质地忽然很想给他博客一下。
以下是在新年期间拍的照片。。。 =新年快乐=

Haha, i've just setup my mobile bloging, isn't it cool? Next time i can just blog from my beloved N82... This is just a testing msg, ignore it if you are not interested.

in short...

i missing for a while, thought of abandon this place already, well, but i got motivated again, by my dad, haha... he actually read all these, can u believe it? he is learning computer now, as in, learn by himself, not from courses. 佩服佩服。。。

ok.. everytime, when it comes to year end, events will start pilling up, so, in shorts, after the year end concert, i went to hong kong, ate a lot, met Flora, one of my best friend during the uni.

After Hong Kong, i came back, started to arrange the new timing for students, busy with my work, then bought a new toy, my nokia n82, played and excite by it till now, then Chinese new year, went back to melaka, kl, then back to melaka, and now, back in Singapore, started work for 4 days already, everything just so... er.... expected. boring huh~~~

oh ya, haw signed up starhub cable tv, which will make me less online, but also less practising for my piano, and less doing my theory homework, hmmm... is that good or bad?

新年过了，我默默地计划鼠年的一切，但是我自问是一个自律性很低的人，不知道我的这盘计划将会维持多久，但是我会尽量，好不好？

My HK trip

28th Dec.... 7.45pm arrived at HK international airport, went back to Flora's house, came out for dinner at dai pai dong... what we ate? yu gap, nai mang, vege and a porridge, yum yum....

29th Dec... Ocean park the whole day, arrived at OP at 12noon...
1st station: jelly fish
2nd station: dolphin show
3rd station: super big aquarium
4th station: shark home
5th staion: the super panda, cute~~~~
8pm... bye bye Ocean Park

then went to this hakka restaurant for dinner.... nice food over there, then the dessert shop next to the restaurant.... then Home..... finally

30th Dec... wong kok... buy spec, lunch with roasted pork, cha siew and roasted swan, eat road side snacks.... curry fish ball, but tom yam instead, small bowl shark fin soup, smelly bean curd, boot zai gou, egg tart, super nice cold milk tea.... full till can't walk

bought a sling bag... nice nice... then home for dinner.... after dinner my stomach is basically like a BALL......

aiyoyo, found this draft post in my postings, i think i draft this while i am in Hong Kong... but i didn't complete the trip, nevermind la, just post it anyway, at least there's 2 days activities. haha...

Disappointment

I am tired, disappointed and pissed, plz give me some explanations. Attach with some proof that she worth all these sh*t.

Exhausted, but happy

I wake up so early every morning nowadays, cos i am not used to sleeping with ppl that i am not fermilliar with.

My mother in law, sister in law and 2 nieces are here. These few days, basically i am a driver. Holiday seasons, every place is just soooo crowded and traffic jam.

We went to orchard last nite, just for the count down, sat at starbucks, toast box for the whole nite, just to wait for the few seconds, well, the kids are happy, took so many pictures.

and today, we are going to Sentosa. The main purpose of going there is the Songs of the Sea thingy, it's at nite, but we got to go early to grab the tickets for it, cos i think it will be quite heat during this festive season. I am gonna make some sandwiches for them, cos eating in Sentosa, i think.... too expensive.

oh ya, about the concert, it went ok... for the 1st half, i think most of the students are nervous, keep making mistakes, I was quite disappointed then, but after the interval, when comes to the higher grades students, they are more calm and play well, I shall silently announce the best performers during the nite..... ta da~~~~ Lim Jia Ying.... well done, he is the most fluent one.

Everything's in place

u know... i was so busy lately, but i am proud of myself though, cos i got so many things DONE....

I was preparing for the concert, buy presents, wrap them, train students, time them, making up lessons for the year 2007, practising piano, etc etc.... and and and... my mother in law is coming into town, as u know, my room is like, er..... rubish dump, and the floor is like, coasta sand shore, and the laundry is like, a mountain, so i have to wash all the clothes, throw all the useless stuff in the room, and the floor is yet to be sweep... i think i will do it tomorrow, and guess what? my mother in law is coming on the day AFTER tomorrow.... gosh, i am so stressed up.

Now, i have to think, where to bring my mother in law, where to eat, where to shop, where to view, in such a short time, they only come for 4 days.

Grrrrr..... and today, i got some shocking pictures from my brother... er... he named them human birdy relationship, sorry i can't explain that to you right now, cos sigh... it's a longgggg story, a longggggg history behind it, but trust me, the photos are SHOCKING!!!!! I must type this down, so that i can remember next time when i am 60 years old, and tell my grand children about this relationship, and the BIRDY. I wanted to use the word birdie, but i think that's something to do with golf, right? and this is totally not related to golf....

sorry, i don't know what i am talking about, i am stressed out. I want to scream, i want to dance like a crazy monkey in my room... i want to say bye bye

BYE!!

I appear here again...

wow... have been sooooo long when i last posted something on blogger, sorry, i am just too addicted to facebook. I admit that other than facebook i basically did not log in into any other websites. I am just so byers. Even my sis blog more often than me... so i got to catch up.

So many things happened to me while i was away. My sis b'day, i shall not elaborate too much here, u can get merely all the infomation about that day over here ----> www.sundryland.blogspot.com.

Then, i've booked flight tickets to Hong Kong, this just happen yesterday nite, it's a rush thing, so last minute, but i am excited waiting for it to come. After all these years, i've promise Flora that i will go HK to visit her, finally i get my butt moving. hehe... i know i am one of the laziest creature in the world, always promise something easily and break the promise easily as well.

I will be so busy for the whole Nov and Dec, cos i am going back to KL for a weekend, going back to Melacca for another weekend, due to my MIL's birthday, and I am gonna get prepared for the concert, got to buy presents, arrange the performance programme, write report booklets, and print invitation cards.... and etc etc etc... see, i really can't imagine how i am gonna cope with all these things, since i am so lazy to start off with... WRITING THE REPORT BOOKS.

But after the concert, i will be free.... and wait for my HK trip.

I am at the McD in plaza singapura, waitting for my pop piano lesson, got to go now... it's 7.55pm and the lesson is at 8pm. gonna be late.

My fav song on 20th Oct

Can`t We Try

I see your face cloud over like a little girls
And your eyes have lost their shine
You whisper something softly
I`m not meant to hear
Baby tell me what`s on your mind

I don`t` care what people say
About the two of us from different worlds
I love you so much that it hurts inside
Are you listening

Please listen to me girl

Can`t we try just a little bit harder
Can`t we give just a little bit more
Can`t we try to understand
That it`s love we`re fighting for
Can`t we try just a little more passion
Can`t we try just a little less pride

I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside
I hear you on the telephone
With god knows who
Spilling out your heart for free
Everyone needs someone they can talk to
Girls that someone should be me

So many times I`ve tried to tell you
You just turn away
My life is changing so fast now
Leaves me lonely and afraid

Can`t we try just a little bit harder
Can`t we give just a little bit more
Can`t we try to understand
That it`s love we`re fighting for
Can`t we try just a little more passion
Can`t we try just a little less pride

I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside
Don`t let our love fade away
No matter what people say
I need you more and more each day

Can`t we try just a little bit harder
Can`t we give just a little bit more
Can`t we try just a little bit harder
Can`t we give just a little bit more
Can`t we try just a little more passion
Can`t we try just a little less pride
Love you so much baby
Tears me up inside

Can`t We Try

a funny clip

A kid learning to say 'blood'

撼动人心的夜晚

刚看完一场让人感动的演唱会。巫启贤2007新加坡演唱会，那一段美好的日子。太棒了，简直就是一场大型的合唱团。他唱太多耳熟能详的好歌，每一首都是我熟悉的歌，曾经天天都在浴室里唱的歌，怎么能叫我不怀念。我想今晚所有的观众都有同感，要不，不会出现大合唱的场面。

太撼动人心了，我将带着感动进入梦乡。

如果。爱

I just watched a movie, it's an old movie, i mean, it's not that old, but kinda old. It's title is

如果。爱.

演员包括金城武，张学友，女的忘了名字。。。。

我还没有看这部电影之前，已经听说它是一部好电影，令人感动，拍摄的美美地，Soundtrak 一流。。。 曾经疯狂地爱上它的原身带。但是就是没有机会看（电影）。

今天我终于把如果。爱这部电影看了一遍。。。 太令人感动了。世界上真的有如此深情的男人？他说，他最失败的就是爱上一个自己鄙视的女人。等了她十年，再见到她的时候，是该复仇，还是爱得太深？

My New Skin

yes, i just changed my skin, but but but.... not satisfied. how? how? there are no nice skin anymore... I am so sad, and i can't change back to the old one.

one thing good, i used my new lappy to setup the whole thing, i am still playing with this toy, kinda complicated.

I was lost in action lately, i am busy playing with new toy, i am busy being soooo hyper about what's going to happen next in my life... I am gonna be so super busy, but i like it. cos, i am going to a concert, i am going back to malacca for a vacation, i am going to a seminar, etc etc.... there are just so many wonderful things awaiting for me.

I am happy, my imagination is running, running wild.

My New Toy

yeahhh... I got a new toy. My new lappy

Sotong Me

ok... today is a tiring day for me, not that i have many students today, but i drove too much.

I was suppose to leave Bukit Timah at around 7pm and reach Yishun around 8pm for my next student. As this is the first time i am connecting Bukit Timah with Yishun, i don't know my fastest way there. Normally i will go back to AMK, then go to Yishun from AMK again. but out of don't know what crazy thought, i decided to go straight from Bukit Timah to Yishun, finding myself a new way there. So, i followed the road to woodlands, cos yishun is near woodlands...

I drive drive drive.... I drive drive drive.... aiks... I saw a signboard saying JOHOR... OMG, I didn't bring my passport, how ah how ah how ah???!!! I was freaked out.... I thought of u-turning back, go back to bukit timah, go back to AMK and then go to yishun from there.... there gone all my petrol...

then, after u-turning back, i saw this MRT track, I gave up my plan, cos i know that my yishun's student's house is just next to a MRT track... so i followed the track... yi??? i turn back to the same old point.... then i saw this LRT passing by my head... OMG, that's not a MRT, IT'S A LRT....

so, in the end, i turn here, turn there... manage to get on to an expressway... from BKE, to SLE... then yishun, stupid me... sis said, next time don't explose new way without her sitting in the car, k la, i know she can read map better than me, she can recognise the road better than me. I give up, i totally give up on exploring...

Eric Moo Concert!!!

Yeah!!!! Haw agreed to bring me to Eric Moo concert.... I am so excited... and and and, we just compleated the online purchase of the tickets, so, he cannot regret now. wow.... so excited. My best birthday present from him, rather than just a packet of vitasoy from 7-11 in year 2004. He has improve, hasn't he?

er... who is eric moo??? hmmm... ok ok ok, i know i am old, i am out of date, but i grew up listening to his songs. I am sure that nite will bring back so much memories, and i am watching together with haw, it's so memorable right?

Happening weekends

One of my sis's friend came from Australia to visit. Well, as a big sister, i got to drive them around singapore right? Cos he is here only for one nite, so, kinda rush, can't afford to take public transport, hehe.

Saturday nite, went to changi airport to fetch him, after that, went changi village for dinner. 1st time there, but it's something like chomp chomp, newton circles that kind of place. Nothing special to me. It's warm, smoky and stinky, yucks. But the food are not bad la.

Sunday, bring him to singapore wet market for b'fast. after that, we headed to Sentosa, went into the underwater world, walk and walk and walk, we walked so much. and it's super sunny, so hot loh.... sis, you got to compensate me, send me to some whitening spa or something, facial also can if spa (full body) is too expensive.

After Sentosa, Vivo city, the biggest shopping mall in singapore. We went there is because, it's just next to Sentosa. hehe... went to the roof garden in vivo, watched the boat at the sea, Haw took some pictures, that's all, sigh... kinda bo liao...

Then to Suntec, for lunch, ichiban again... sis loves jap food, her friend loves jap food too, i don't mind jap food, although Haw was a little sick of jap food, but we don't care about him, hehehe... so mean ya.

After lunch, we sent him to the train station. But our plan didn't end here, although me and sis were super tired, we decided to go and watch the movie Secret. yes i know, this is my 2nd time, but as a good and considerate sister, i got to accompany my sister right? But i slept thru some parts of the movie. hehe...

Teachers' Day

I know it's over already, but i was too busy with things, hardly come online even, so, till now then i post about teachers' day. I got some very nice presents this year. Very nice as in, i like them very much, not ordinary present like photo frames ( i still remember there was one year, i got many many photo frames from students, I mean, i don't really take photos, even if i do, i dont really print them out and put in a photo frame and display in my room, and i can't throw them away, right? so, I kept the 8 photo frames somewhere in my room, till now, sigh...) ok ok, back to this year's present. they are super cute, i seriously love them very much...

• A spinning monkey - I was once shopping in a mall, saw this spinning monkey and wanted to buy it so much, it's very cute, you pull the string, and let it go, the body of the monkey will go spin, spin and spin... hehe, i love playing with it..
  
• A mushroom head - It's something like the mushroom in the computer game called super mario, it's small and round, when a mobile rings, it will have lights growing... I put it in my car, and when at nite, my phone rings, it lights up, very nice.

These are the 2 that i love most, other than these, there is one photo clipper (yes, another photo thingy), a bunch of pink roses (they are nice, but they don't last long, got to throw away eventually, sigh), some cookies, and some hand made cards.

Cos the roses are nice, but it will die after few days, i took a picture, so that i can keep in memory.

I know the shade of green that i am wearing is ugly

They are nice, aren't they?

感动第一

一直有一种神奇的力量，牵引着心灵相通的两个人。这段字句和照片，深深的让我感动。有人默默的扶持着你，那你会不会加油呢?


Thanks to www.dasmondkoh.com
picture grabbed from dasmond

Point form again.

Whenever i don't feel like writing, or rather posting in long sentences, i will put things that happen lately in point form. Which will end up very 没有人情味的表达方式。

• Sarah came, Sarah went. One of my best friend during A-level, but we didn't get to spend much time together.
• 还沉静在学生成绩的喜悦中。
• I am busy, busy sorting out all my books. I got a small library at home, but it's not organise, since now, Haw is working nite shift [yes, i am sleeping alone again :(] I've decided to organise my books, which are to keep, which are to sell.
• Still listening to the Secret Soundtrack, it's addictive.

Looking at those piles and piles of books, *fainted*

Congratulations

yeah, the result is out... ABRSM's result that i waited waited and waited. Congratulation to all my beloved students... you all did a good job, i mean, a REALLY good job.

• Distinction - 50%
• Merit - 41.67%
• Pass - 8.33%

which means, 100% passing rate... YEAH~~~~~~ I was so excited until i sacrificed my nap this afternoon.

Cool Clip

Check it out!!! cool piano battle, from the movie Secret by Jay Chou

what have i done

1. working as usual
2. sleeping as usual
3. eat & drink as usual
4. online as usual
5. went for a musical ~ THE KING & I <--- for details plz visit http://sundryland.blogspot.com/2007/08/king-and-i.html
6. medical check-up <--- A jap as usual (quote from someone that couldn't fall asleep, rolling on my bed)

end of post. -.-

2 days left

Good news finally, after all the craps... hehe, haw is coming back early, so, now only 2 more days. He will be back soon, but but but... i won't get to see him until 12th Aug. Cos i am going back to KL, on the same day. *flip eyes*

Today, off the whole day. I went to Young Musicians' Society (YMS) to book the concert date. Yeah, so i will held another annual concert this Dec. on the 23rd Dec. Hope everything will go well :)

Yesterday, went to IMM to choose a piano for a student. High quality, affordable price. Good choice. I almost trade in my Yamaha U1 and get one from there, but I think it twice, I shouldn't be too 冲动。

After Before IMM, we went to Bishan J8, saw many many UFM1003 DJ working over there, so cool ya, I always listen to 1003, I love their programme, especially the 大哥，黄文鸿。 His response is very fast and he is very 幽默。我超喜欢听他主持的。

还有。。。hmmm... 我的心情平复了很多了，谢谢，没事了。

Now, most important thing... THE CONCERT!!!! yeah.... I am so excited once the date is fixed today.

ARGH!

PISS OFF!!!!!!!!!! Give me a break. They are your children, it's your responsibility. I am just an ordinary piano teacher, not a moral teacher, damn it.

I don't need you, to teach me how to teach. I hate it more when i know that u don't have weeeeee bit of piano knowledge. One more time, just one more time, i'll fire you, and u will got to put your butt into a find-a-new-piano-teacher sh*t.

Before you teach your children how to be a real human, educate yourself first, don't pass those sh*t down to the next generation.

12 days left

我知道现在已经很晚了，我应该在梦中。。。但是我实在睡不着。

刚才读了一个久违的朋友的博客，天哪，在和他失去联络的五，六年里，他是怎么过的，为什么有那么多的不开心? 为什么他那么失落。。。我一口气看了所有他写的一字一句，心情是越看越低落，心是越看越抽泣。

那天，我打了一通电话给他，我的心情是兴奋的，一个我想见很久的朋友，终于让我给联络上了，不是该跳跃的吗? 但是我并没有在他的语气中也找到一样的雀跃。当时我是纳闷的，但我不知道原因。同一天，晚上，我在MSN 遇见他，我打了招呼，但是我等了一个礼拜，他还是没有回应，为什么? 当时我还傻得在想，是不是我们在5，6 年前的那次该死的误会，还是冲突，他还没有放得很下呢?

这所有的问号，今晚，在我读完了他的博客之后，开始变得清晰。。。有了一些答案。虽然我并不知道，我这一切的想象，是不是事实。

原来，一些你认为雀跃的事，往往会变得一厢情愿。

朋友，如果你在乎，如果你关心，如果你有一天看到这一篇，我只想对你说一句。。。


对不起

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严重的思念吞噬着我，请你快点回到我的身边好吗?

15 days left

JUST A TITLE~~~~

暧昧感觉

歌曲：<<最后慢舞>>
歌手：周传雄


黑夜来袭热闹的街渐渐冷清
寂寞的人聚集在一起
我拥着你摇晃目光紧贴你
舍不得离去
音乐停舞步停
从今以后再也不会靠这么近
最后一次纠结在一起
我仰着头回避眼中的泪意
最后的相依
音乐起舞步起
拥着你空气中凝结着一种
气味叫做分离
拥着你或许就会有勇气
让我们的爱延续
我们是两个个体
我们被困在这里
汗水握在我的手心
只剩心跳的声音
拥着你黑暗中交叠的那个
剪影那么伤心
拥着你省略了千言万语
绝望的抱你更紧
你化身的凄凉旋律
是我最美的回忆

oh, i love this song when i heard it from UFM1003 for the first time today. I touched me so much... 最近很喜欢一种暧昧的感觉，我不会形容，就是爱那种暧昧。of course, 我是没有暧昧的对象的，只是有那种感觉而已，它会让我的mood swing 得很厉害。 我想我有病，我想我将不久于人世了。 我想我必须振作起来，不要胡思乱想，最近一些奇怪的想法快把我淹没了。

最后慢舞，多么凄美。。。

17 days left

hahaha, i am once excited again.... after all the hassle by the convenience of the internet, i found one of my long-lost-contact friend. We chatted on the phone just now, he is in Macau now, working there... we were very very close good friends while secondary school. I can still remember all the fun time we spent together during math and science classes.

I followed him around to all the dramas that he performed in. He is indeed meant for this field. You should see him in person, so that u will know how expressive his expression can be.

I bet it's hard for us to meet up nowadays, I am in Singapore while he is in Macau. But i am still happy to finally keep in touch with this long-lost-contact friend again.

Day-Counter: 17 days...

My sotong head

not only i act like a sotong, now, i got the head of a sotong as well, I think i am turning into a real sotong very soon. Goodbye to all my love ones.

18 days left

Gosh, i spent so much again, bought a DP cardigan, damn cute, and a DP tube, don't worry, i am wearing the tube together with the cardigan, i don't want to scare anybody that bump into me on the street. hehe...

I bought some hair-making stuffs from the Cheap Jap Shop as well, sis helped me to setup some nice hair style, although it didn't turn out as we expected, but we tried, ok... I am gonna try it again. I think it will look nice on me :)

I can't belief that i am blogging so often lately, just for one simple reason, days-counting.

Day-Counter: 18 days...

19 days left

Sometimes, i just feel that life got to have some points.

1. Today we had our dinner at a japanese restaurant in plaza singapura.
2. The food there sucks a big time.
3. The portion there is so damn small.
4. Their fried rice is very wet.
5. Their gravy for the fried rice, i.e. tomato sause, tasted funny.
6. Their sweet corn soup is indeed very very sweet, which tasted weird to me.
7. Their hot plate chicken is very oily.

.... etc etc etc.... seriously, i can just go on and on and on... but, strangely, that place is full of ppl, i wonder whether they are all first timer there or a re-visit.

... 19 days.

@ The Esplanade Library

Guess where am i right now? hehe, using sis's lappy, online at the esplanade library.. I am so excited. well, this is my first time in singapore, online in somewhere outside my house, u know? worth screaming right? but i can't, DUH... i am in a LIBRARY...

actually i am not suppose to be here, i suppose to be teaching, working, but i didn't, i pon my students' lessons, hehehe... bad teacher here. But it's not my fault, it's my sis's fault. Cos she got a concert to go to, in fact, she is in a concert right now. Then i don't want to be left out, working like mad, while she is enjoying... hence, i called up, and cancelled the lesson, ta da~~~~ I am just soooo smart.

I think today is my first day feeling hyper(as b4) after Haw left :( aiks... :)))

I got another mission of my trip to The Esplanade Library actually. I come here to look for a piano score... again, requested by my dearest sister... see, I am the best sister in the world, right? I am looking for a piece call Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring, it's a choral cantata by Mr. J.S.Bach... I found, I found, I found 3 different editions of the piece. I shall borrow just all of them back for CH. and one more book for myself, the great musical, Les Miserables's scores.

yay, i am so happy.... ya ya, i know, this is my 2nd post of the day, but i just got to post down such a meaningful moment of my life, wasting time, waiting for my sister to fetch her home, right?

20 days left

It's raining out side. These few days the weather is so damn cold. My fingers are numb whenever i got up from bed every morning, cos my duvet doesn't cover them very well through the nites. Sigh...

My LV lover friend called me all of the sudden yesterday. I wonder what she got to say when we meet up one day, cos she said she want to meet me one day, passing me some souvenirs and chatting and catch up some updates from me. I really wonder what she gonna tell me this time. hmmm... i wonder.

IMH and still counting... 20 days

Sotong

I am indeed very blur lately... I supposed to go to work, so, i went to the car, started the engine, setup the mp3 device ( that took me about 5mins), off the engine, got off the car and thought that i already off from work... -.-'"

walked back to the car, started the engine for the 2nd time, setup the stupid mp3 thingy again ( another 3 mins) and this time, i remembered to drive away from home :)

P.S and today, i forgot to zip up my jeans (blushed)

21 days left

started my day early today. The time now is around 7.50am. Hmmm... for a person like me, maybe you are wondering why am i up so early today. Cos i got to send my sis and her boss to work today, as the boss's car is going into the workshop for checkup.

Feeling not good when i wake up just now though. cos didn't really catch a good sleep last nite, guess i slept too much on the day b4. I am still moody, didn't really talk at home since haw is not around in the house. I cannot be like that for this 23 days. I think I must change my life style, after all, I am regaining my freedom after about 8 or 9 years. Well, not that i don't have any freedom when he is around, but less, haha.

But i still wish that these few days can pass faster though.

Still waiting and counting.... 21 days

23 days left

Just got back from the airport, sent Haw off for Jakarta. Arghh... I am so tired. wanna go catch some sleep. Counting down... 23 days

NDP

I was driving, stopped by mr. police, and saw them walked pass us. hehe... I thought i won't have any chance to go to NDP for my whole life, who knows...

I was at the junction, in my car, with sis. Stopped there to let them walked pass. too excited, so decided to take some pictures of them.

By the way... Haw is going to Jakarta on Tuesday... I got no mood. :(

my 100th post

Haw: 我用你的名字写了一首诗给你。
me: 哈哈，念来听听。
Haw: ‘李’你都傻，‘静’静就好， ‘宜’神疑鬼。
me: -.-"'

haha, i just realised that this is my 100th post. cool ya. special thanks to mr. xiao chuan, thanks for cheering me up. I am still in the progress of formatting my computer as well as my brain.

WARNING: format will erase ALL data on this disk.

to format the disk click OK, to close, click cancel.

OK <--- click click click
formatting... 1% 2% 3% 4%...

kong kong kong

kong kong kong... this is the sound when i knock my head on the wall... why is it kong kong kong and not kok kok kok... one reason..... cos it's empty inside. -.- bleh~~~

Some Updates.

Haw: (while watching campus superstar) 看她的样子就不象是会唱歌的人。
me: 你不可以以貌取人。
Haw: 我是绝对不会以貌"娶"人的。
me: -.-

I just got back from plaza singapura, went there for my pop piano lesson. The lesson was ok, a little on the slow pace, but it's ok. I shall just continue learning and see what can i achieve from there.

I didn't blog much lately, it's all because my life for the pass few weeks was er... boring. I work, I sleep, I eat... everyday. Not a single thing in my life worth voicing out. ahhh... I am so dead. My mind just gone blank, again. I realise this happen to me quite often. Once in a while u will see me posting about me being a dead meat, blank head, etc etc. Does this happen to u too?

Oh ya, i am using Haw's comp nowadays. cos my computer got my virus, i think, it has gone blank too. it is dead too. I am still thinking a way of formatting it. but, i am still thinking... thinking... think think think..... and fell asleep eventually.

A nice chat

I am chatting with Flora - one of my ex-housemate when we were in bristol. Talked so much, i type type type nonstop... hehe, maybe too long never talk to her, we talked from job, to money, to life, and now, still talking.... about me having babies or not... -.-

nice talking to her though... hehe. ok, i shall back to the MSN with her.

My first lesson of the pops

Yesterday was my first lesson @ Yamaha Music School @ Plaza Singapura. hehe, very basic course.

I pretended that i only have a little bit of music background. My purpose is to see how a pop piano lesson be conducted. hmmm... maybe next time i can take up students for pop piano course. Then can earn more,then can buy more lexus for mei mei, so that she can be a da fei po... and then i will be come pai gu xian. wahahaha....

ok, enough of craps. I will update more about my pop piano lesson next time, yesterday was just learning the Do Re Mi Fa and Sol. the first 5 notes in the C major. and u know what? it really took me a hard time pretending that i cannot curve my fingers... hehe.

Oh ya, i got a bad cough now, really bad, and i got chased out from one of my student's house cos of that, the daddy said he scared that i will spread the germs to his kids, sigh sigh... I already there, started the scales with Sheryl, and he can chopped the lesson and ask me to go home, sigh sigh.... hard to become teacher here leh....

Funny Maths

found this online, super funny, enjoy~~

Random post

me: why are babies always staring at me?
sis: maybe they are thinking, hmmm... i hope i won't be like her when i grow up
me: -.-

Terrible day

What a day, what a day~~~ my car kena 'kiss' by a taxi this evening, gosh... i think the taxi uncle was falling asleep. He kept saying sorry sorry... he didn't even got down from his car to check my car's condition... and now i don't know what to do. So troublesom.

After tat, i found out that there was this 铁丝网inside my rice, i.e, my dinner... OMG, how can that happen? and the 铁丝网is actually hard hard one loh. What will happen if i blur blur, didn't see it and swallow it down my throat? damn... I was so pissed. And the chicken that i ordered together with my rice, gosh... the skin ho, FULL OF FEATHERS... not those short one ok, long long, even longer than my little finger. Yucks~~~ i will never never NEVER!!!! go back to that mix vege rice stall. and will stop all my friends from going there too.

What a day, i am so tired now, desperately need a sleep. bye bye

Sis got a new toy

Sis got a new cell, how i wish i got a new cell too. it's so cool loh.... sigh, but my mobile contract is not dead yet. Still about a year to go, so longgggg... so envy, i want, i want.

ok, enough of that. but... ok ok, i shall be calm, 冷静一点. My turn will come. Well, her phone is nice, good, and most importantly, it's cheap~~~ I wish i got that 100 dollars voucher as well. sigh sigh, nevermind, i know i wish for too many things. Everything also i want, i want laptop, i want new cellphone, i want my own house, i want to quit job, i want a new desktop, i know i am 贪心，hope for laptop as well as a desktop. But.... I WANT~~~~

I am so tense lately, students' exam is just around the corner, most of them are still so so only, 总认为他们会fail leh, 怎么办? argh... forget it. I shall just do my best, if they cannot make it also i can't do anything, right? they don't want to practise, i can't do anything. I can't move to their house and stay with them, everyday bug on them to practise, right? I can't call them everyday to nag them right? so, basically, i can't do anything, i can only go once a week, listen to their playing, and point out things that they got to change in order to score higher.

Sorry for not having pictures lately. Cos i don't have a good cellphone that have good camera loh, cannot blame me right? Also becoz nowadays i got to save up quite an amount for my insurance, so even weekends we stay at home most of the time, and AB exam, i am busy giving extra lessons on weekends, so didn't go any where to take pictures.

Spending Power

Gosh, i spent so much this week. ok... these are the things that i bought :-

I love my new arm chair

I love my new keyboard

I love my new mouse

I love my new working sling bag

I love my new jeans (2 pair of them)

I love my new DP clothings (5 of them)

see? am i crazy? i must control, control control... any1 see me spending somemore, can walk up to me and give me a good nice SLAP... i am serious, any1 can do that. I won't get angry, i might cry a little cos of the pain, but it's ok.

Oh ya, forgot to say sorry, sorry for missing in action for so long. I just recovered from a cold. One week, i've been quite blur and laggy. Sleep most of the time, cancelled most of the classes, so now, i am busy making up lessons. Students' exam is on the 10th of July, very near, so, lagi busy, got to go for extra classes as well. Sundays are no longer my off day, i got to work on sunday as well.

After the exam, i am gonna take a good rest, maybe will go out of singapore. KL? Melaka? or some where else? After the trip, i got to get ready and prepared for the year end concert already, book auditorium, buy presents, print invitations etc etc... forever busy.

Feeling Something

Another interesting one.

OMG, I fell in love again... I fell in love with this gal's bloggie. I love her drawings, i love her spirit, and i love her stories.

Another interesting blog, www.stickgal.blogspot.com, I know lian he zhao bao already intruduce her, and yes, i got to know her from lian he zhao bao, so what? u will love her, go check it out. Well, at least i do.

Pictures Post

New BlogSkin

I've change my blog skin again, kinda bored of the old one... was looking at something very simple and pinky, i fell in love with pink lately, don't know why. I think ppl that know me b4 just cannot believe that i actually love pink colour now, hmmm... something has changed?

anyway, cut off the background music, cut off the calendar board, cut off the picture slides, everything cut cut cut... ya, so it's pretty simple now.

Going back this thursday for the weekends. it's dad's birthday, so me and sis decided to go back and give him a birthday treat. Looking forward to it la~~~ but after the trip, got to make up like crazy.. So many lessons had been cancelled during the month of May. Gee~~~ so sick of make up lessons already.

I think i won't be posting till after the trip. Will update asap. *pooff* <--- did i sound like disappearing at once? sigh... lame, i am bored, that's why, it's 2am now, and i am still awake, don't feel like sleeping.

谦卑的力量

今天看了一些剪报，是说某些曾经非常出名的音乐人，钢琴家，他们一路走来的辛苦，辛酸，光辉背后的黑。让我有很多很多的感触。 一个经常在台上享受掌声，享受摄影机，相机的光芒的人，一旦回到家，会不会感到寂寞? 他们有没有一套走出寂寞，走出那个光环的方法，他们有没有那种力量?

我们经常在报章上看到某报导说，某某明星自杀，某某神童患上犹豫症等等。。。。。 我心想，就是他们走不出来。一个非常红的明星，如果有一天，他不红了，他已经过不了普通人的生活，他一定很难过。一个小孩，小时候是享受全世界的称赞而长大的，长大了他发现，比他了不起的大有人在，人们不再觉得他是高人一等的，注意力也不再投向他的时候，那他怎么办? 碍于面子问题，他们往往就只有钻牛角尖，一直钻到无路可逃的时候，就崩溃。

其实普通人也会发生这样的问题的。这另我想起刘墉先生的一本书，写的是关于谦卑的力量。

试想想自己平时所说的话，是不是大多数都以自我为中心?

"我不是这样的人。。。。。"
"我不会做这样的事。。。。。"
"我希望你可以。。。。。"
"我不能接受你这样。。。。。" 等等，是不是你时常说的。也许你没有察觉，但是今天过后，是不是可以改一改呢? 也许别人听了会比较舒服呢?

"你是不是可以尝试这种方式。。。。。"
"我们一起努力吧。。。。。"
"你觉不觉得这样做会比较有效果。。。。。"

改一改一些平时的措辞，可能就能改善人事上的一些矛盾，不是很好吗?

一直保持一种学习的心态，不断的进步，虽然是没有巅峰，但是会有目标，当你达到你的目标，那就是你个人的巅峰了。

无良商家

This is the colour of my phone

This is the colour of my gym bag

This is the colour of my wallet

...... THIS IS THE COLOUR OF THE LEMON SWEETS.... that i bought yesterday

you know those very popular lemon sweets? golden packaging? look like medicine pills? and yes, it's so white and hard. I wonder did they put in rocks and liquid paper into the sweets? sigh sigh... well, i am just being crazy, of course not, but i am sure they put lots of chemical to make them look so white. Scary huh~~~~