A long lost friend

haha... until just now, about 10pm, my mood got better a little... well, maybe due to "too much sleeps" syndrome, i had a bad mood, since this morning... hardly smile. but just now, i called a long lost friend, i have been looking for her for sometimes, i hated myself of loosing her contact number, but i found it eventually, on some old newspaper cuttings, fated or what?

I was soooooo happy that i found her again, we chatted on the phone, happily, i am so glad to hear that she is happy now... and also she picks up piano once again, very very glad and touched.

we will meet up one day right? to catch up watever that we lost b4?

lets work hard together, leading a better life, shall we? I am a happy gold fish~~~

愚蠢的天秤座

该死的天秤座性格让我moody 了好几天。基本上，天秤座的人，就是一个‘烂’好人。他们不能够忍受——某某人不喜欢我——的想法。只要知道一个人对他有负面的意见，天秤座的人就会难受得不得了。

这几天，我就切切实实地感受并证实了这一点。虽然说我已经非常了解自己到底是一个什么样的人，但是就是没有办法改正过来。

前两天，因为要把事情做好（又是天秤在作怪），就假厉害地帮mr. ong 安排让我一个学生见他的时间，结果产生了一些误会。mr. ong sent 来了一封听起来还蛮生气的SMS。就是这封SMS让我的天空灰灰暗暗的，好像生病的感觉，然后好几天，我都不敢主动再和他联络。我非常地沮丧，脑海里一直不断的想，不断的责怪自己为什么处事那么不小心。

就因为心里难受，再不解决这个僵局，我的眼泪一定决堤，心脏一定爆炸，然后我身边的人一定遭殃。所以我就发了一封简讯，势必要打破这个僵局，mr. ong 的reply 是这样的——ok, no prob, my dear friend——原来他没有把事情放在心上，没有生我的气，顿时，放下了心中大石，phew~~~

看吧，这就是所谓的——天秤座症候群。。。超幼稚的，但是真的，我想改变，改掉这个自己吓自己的习惯，然后轻轻松松的，什么都不想，什么都不假设，但是真的改不了。

勇敢迈向梦想

有人告诉我，说我可以让兴趣变成工作，是非常幸福的事。是的，但是你知不知道，我也是绕了好大一圈，克服好多的挫败感，才得到今天的一切。虽然还不是非常成功，但是，我已经很满足了。学习钢琴的这条路，虽然我走得比别人轻松一点，但是自己也是经过很多的挣扎。就音乐，尤其是古典的，就让很多人误解，要靠这个赚钱，很多人就认为根本不可能。但是，我说你们都错得太离谱了。现在是什么样的一个社会，很多艺术家都已经改变自己的脾气来迎合这个现实的都市。现在真的会有赚不了生活的艺术家吗？ 现在的艺术家，音乐家，钢琴家，已经不一样了。

当然，要到‘家’毕竟还有一段距离，而这段距离，绝对不是短的，也不是平坦的。但是如果你喜欢音乐，享受它，那还不容易到‘家’吗？最重要的是，理性分析自己要的是什么，坚持自己的理念，勇敢地迈向自己的梦想。

是谁不曾被说过练琴很吵？
是谁不曾被说过教琴没饭吃？
是谁不曾被说过教琴不稳定？

但是，是不是这样就放弃理想？然后一辈子都过着自己不喜欢的生活，做着自己不喜欢的工作，然后不出10年就开始厌倦，厌恶人生。

如果是这样，我宁愿开开心心的吃面包，也不要流着眼泪吃鱼翅。这不是艺术家的脾气，只是一个人对自己的责任，就是让自己开心。

我已经订下一个目标，正努力地迈向我的下一个里程碑，你呢？

璀璨的烟花

I went for fireworks last nite... with haw, mei, JeeJeen and JY family. this year, we've got the best place to watch the fireworks, it's on a hippo, yes, in the Singapore River we were, chatting, laughing, waiting for the show to start. Really good show, i think we are going to book a hippo every year for the fireworks, cos that's really the best place to watch. Anyone interested? remember, next year Aug, look for me, and i will reserve a place for u :)

I didn't really take much pic of the fireworks though, cos i was too excited and forgot to take pic of it, wanna pay more attention to the show. But we took loads of pic b4 the show, will upload it later on.

一个决定

我想，我是经过深思熟虑才下了这个决定的，应该不会后悔，全力以赴吧！！！

30年的一堵墙

今天，我突破了一项纪录。我30年来，第一次写信给爸爸。听起来好像很奇怪，但是的确。我写了一封蛮长的‘电子家书’给爸爸。

我的爸爸，赋予我一个可爱的小康之家，有求必应的他让我和弟妹们的童年过得非常的充实和饱满。他是我一生中，最尊敬的人。尊敬得几乎是怕他，不说不知，我这个天不怕地不怕的女人，凶巴巴的，谁踩着了我的尾巴，就好像疯狗一样的乱咬的人，非常害怕自己的爸爸，一个既温和，又有礼的男人。我们聊天的话题，永远离不开天气和工作这些表面的东西。

刚才，我的心情很澎湃，再加上妹妹的鼓励，我决定给爸爸写封家书。虽然事情后来解决了， 但是我还是决定给爸爸写封信。因为这是一个非常好的机会，打破一个30年都直立不倒的一堵墙。

Welcome home!!!

yeah, i am so happy, my husband is finally back home, more than 2 months, my gosh... how did i manage? but i guess, just got to get used to it, in fact, i become more independent, now that he is back, i can be dependent again, hehe...

along with his return, of course.... PRESENTSSS!!!! my gift no.1 got to be that 100ml perfume, named miracle, i always wanted to buy this perfume, luckily never, cos i am so happy he actually willing to buy me this, he always think that perfume is something very wasteful, not worth the price.

gift no.2..... which i didn't have any clue b4 i saw it from his luggage, a big time surprise.... a pair of Nike sandals.... gee, he actually bring that all the way from Sydney... i am so touched!!! Thank you so much darling.

one little crystal dolphin, for my car deco

one kangaroo soft toy

one dolphin that can strink and expend to about 600% of the original size when put into water, cool ya, i haven try it yet, but i think i will be fun to play with it.

one dolphin that have super strong magnet on it... yeah, i know, he super like dolphin, and also cos i am xiao yu, i leave in water, so i love sea creature too, dolphins are my favorite.

a few badges, soft toys, and some little aeroplane and have sound and lights.. very cute as well. I will give that little aeroplane to my beloved sister, she will scream and love it!!!

and a good news~~~ haw got promoted... i am so happy, all the good things and good news are following him home, bring me happiness... i am gonna be sleepless tonite.