@ Home

I am back in my kl home, it's good to be home, can relax, rest. Actually this time, i am suppose to practice piano at home, hours and hours, but i find it actually quite hard to do so.

The TV is basically on from 9am till late at nite, although my parents didn't complain about anything, but i just feel not right to torture their ears, u know, when u are practising, it's not very promising.

2ndly, the piano is like.... my gosh, super out of tune, i can even tell by bare ears, very bad condition, well, as a very 'chin chai' pianist, i don't really care, so, that will make the torture worse, just imagine all the sounds are crashing, and i am playing the 20th cent pieces, super crash, like 2 bullet trains crashing into each other.

then is the weather... extremely warm ok, make me feel like sleeping. I fell asleep even playing the computer, and that NEVER happen to me.

and i am still coughing badly, every time when i am practising the piano, i just feel that i cannot catch my breath properly, i hold the breath until the end of the piece. especially the moderato and nocturne by Britten. Why must use so much strength? i got no strength leh.... then why must play so quietly? it's hard to control u know... sigh... so, at the end, my Britten become.... PINK COLOUR~~~ and teacher said i very 恶心。 我也不想的啊。救命啊~~~~

OK... 以上的都是借口，我一定会好好地练琴的，Sunday is another class hour, sigh.... i am gonna play the whole of the Haydn sonata, will i be able to?

I miss you~

We had a nice long chat, after all these months, all these years.... with a cup of warm tea in my hand, it's nice... i miss those days when we were together.

• we used to talk on the phone, share our things
• i used to go to your place, stay a peaceful afternoon there before starting to work
• we used to cook breakfast at my place, still remember your fried tomato and crumble egg
• we used to work at the same school, having lunch and dinner together...
• we used to do so many things together, then we lost each other.
• and now.... we've found each other again and wish our friendship last forever

心情0908

我又打败仗了，喉咙依然刺痛，大伤风，怎么那么差劲。

上个礼拜，去了JB，住了一夜，和阿松，卓乐闹了一个晚上，和他们一起游泳。他们是第一次在condo的泳池游泳，阿松好棒，一点都不畏惧，很喜欢水，玩得都不愿意上岸。然后晚上还提灯笼，两个小男孩笑得多么开心，太可爱了。

回到新加坡，就病倒了，躺了两天，糊里糊涂地，睡得天昏地暗，连日子都差点忘记了。今天头脑比较可以思考的时候，竟然以为九月就要过去了，以为自己已经没有时间，以为学生们的笔试就要到了，更以为我的考试也已经逼近。是不是太离谱了？是不是压力大？还是被一些周围的事情影响了心情？

是的，我很容易被别人或者别的事情影响，哪怕是一部连续剧，一首歌，一篇文章，还是一个人的一句话。最近看了一部比较悲的戏，哭得稀里哗啦，满脑子都是戏里的人，事，物。很难抽离。我是不是应该离开电脑一下下，让心情平复，沉淀，直到。。。。几时？唉~

其实，一直以来，我都是认为自己是幸运的，想要得到的东西，不用太努力就可以拥有，但是会不会有一天，幸运不再眷顾我，让我自身自灭？我还没有学会珍惜呢。。。会不会太迟了呢？