Wednesday, November 18, 2009

你最近忙吗?

亲爱的日记,

你最近忙吗?我可忙惨了,忙着买礼物给学生,告诉你,超伤脑精的,他们会喜欢什么东西呢?应个别的需求,一样一样买,他们会喜欢我为他们选择的礼物吗?

然后,印演奏会的票,想演奏会的主题,设计演奏会的出场顺序。。。啊,神啊,救救我吧!!!

除了演奏会,最近我迷恋上了一个地方,就是一个游泳池。有遮掩的呢,再也不怕太阳晒了,下午在没有学生的空档,就可以去泡一泡。多逍遥。

再来就是去王爷爷家吃了两天的晚餐。。。他怎么那么会煮啊?我真惭愧。。。

星期天还得去看一场音乐会,是女高音,不知道自己的艺术造诣,有没有高到会欣赏这种音乐会呢?但是还得去啊,是否会睡着?唉~~~ 惟有尽量把注意力放在钢琴伴奏上。。。是王爷爷伴奏,应该能够让我撑上整个音乐会吧。。。真担心。

澳洲行很快就到,现在还没来得及想行李的事。。。

忙归忙,还是忙得蛮愉悦的啦。。。总比在生病时过的颓废生活强太多了吧。振作振作啊!!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

迷失的感情

上一次是什么时候被一个简单的故事感动得流泪?

今天晚上,7点30分,开着车,听着电台1003,我被感动了。我很少听这个节目,《把爱带回家》但是经过今晚,以后的每一个星期四,我会锁定。太震撼了。

一位穿梭在安宁病房,散播温暖给每一位临终病人的有心人,心情是怎样的?今天晚上讲的是一个小男孩,Jason 的故事,以亮哥哥是怎么帮助Jason 慢慢地接受妈妈即将离开的事实。一句,mummy, do not go~ 是小Jason很想告诉妈妈的一句话,但是最后也只能把它呐喊在白纸上,因为希望妈妈能够走得安心。然后再画了一幅快乐的全家福,献给躺在病床上的母亲,想说的就是。。。爸爸和我,都会快快乐乐地生活下去。

上两个星期看了《姐姐的守护神》,结果被感动得乱七八糟,这次的《把爱带回家》也是无可救药的不能自拔,我不是一个很懂得控制情绪的人,但是却偷偷地下了一个决定,12月的假期,我一定好好地珍惜。

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Sliding doors...

生命中,什么事都是以最美好的方式在呈现。

人生,有很多很多选择,往往就是这些选择让我们裹足不前。到底这次我选择得对不对呢?会不会是最好的呢?

只要相信,自己的选择是最好的,那么真的有那么难选吗?

只要相信,发生在自己身上的是最美的,那么还会后悔吗?

怎么会有那么多时间后悔呢?后悔就是在穷着急,对事情是没有帮助的。我们永远都不可能知道,自己没有选择的,结果又会是怎样,那怎么还会说:“早知道就不选这个了。”呢?也许,另一个选择更糟呢?

如果这件事发生的方式不是这样的话,也许它会以更坏的方式发生呢?

所以,只要相信,每一件事,都是以最美好的方式在呈现,那么还会懊恼为什么自己那么倒霉吗?

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Ramdom!!!

Dear Diary,

I went karaoke with students the other day, and found out that i am a crazy teacher.
& i would like to say some prayer, i want to pray for QY who are still having all sort of tests in Changi General Hospital right now, hope he can get well soon. I pray for the Lim family as well, I know it's a torture to have someone that you love so much lying in hospital and u can't do anything to make him feel better.

I wanted to read a book, My sister's keeper... but I am scared, i think i will cry so hard when reading it, shall i read the book? wait till i buy some tissues first.

I am getting better after taking the 2 spironolactone, only if i spell the name correctly. I think i shall start my exercise schedule very soon, maybe after my KL trip.

I am going back to KL... yeepee~~~~ on this coming friday. and I have a surprise for my dear daddy~~~ I want to see him cry in happiness!!! hahaha...

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

To-do list

Dear dairy,

I need a to-do list urgently... there are so many things to remember and i have to admit that my memories are going down the drain as my age increases, sigh... sad huh!!!

there are so many things to do, and all are so important, i can't afford to miss any one of them out, i will get killed.

First, Chien Pei's wedding in KL, i've booked the air ticket to go back then, i am kind of scared of the custom traffic during public holiday, and her wedding is on the Hari Raya weekend, can't imagine how long is the traffic Q if i drive, so, travel by air is the best.

Then, teacher's student concert again in JB, on the 18th of Oct.

Students' theory exam on the 31st Oct.

6th of Dec, sis will be running a marathon, ok, so what's that to do with my list? well, do u think that i will be free, or i can relax when she running that marathon? i have to take care of her, it's 10km... that woman must be crazy~~~

right after the marathon, on the 7th of Dec, we will be flying over to Australia to attend my brother's convo, will stay there from 7th to 12th of Dec, really looking forward to it, hope it is a good holiday for us, the whole family will be going, syok!!!

12th night back to singapore, 13th of Dec, will be my own students' concert... sigh... why did i put myself into this kind of situation? but still looking forward to concert though, we didn't have any concert last year due to my body condition, so this year, most of them are higher grades already, and of course, some adorable baby pianist as well, so proud of them... muaks~~~

So, in between, i need to prepare my invitation cards, report cards, presents for students, and running to SGH for regular checkup and blood test...

and lastly, plan for next year's schedule, print 2010 calendar.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

A relaxing wed afternoon

Dear Diary,

nice weather today, although it rain, but it was nice and comfy after all the heat. I spent my afternoon walking alone in a mall, trying to figure out how to decorate my invitation for the annual concert... but ended up, buying nothing, cos they are not right.

Keep walking, listening to my mp3, it was the soundtrack of nodame, nice classicals, piano playing, concertos, symphonies... nice... it was so relax. Then i walked pass a CD shop, I walked in, trying to get more classical CD for my car, but that shop was in a mess, they don't organize the classical CD, it was hard to find a good one. Then i gave up... and i decided....

Walked into Yamaha Music store, trying to get some books, but couldn't find any one that i am looking for. then I made another decision, like within a minute...

to walk out from the mall, to another music store that sell more books... cos I WANT those repertoires by today, I want to practise them on the piano tomorrow early morning.. if i can play piano in the night i would love to, but i know i can't... so, tomorrow morning, i want new repertoires. Am i too 任性。I don't care!!!

So, i ended up with a shopping bag in my hand, with Schubert piano sonata book 1, and fantasy in f minor by Schubert in the bag.... I am happy now....

then happily, eat dinner with sis... so... today was a good day for me, although i can't get anything for the invitation cards, can't get anything from the messy CD store, and can't get any book from Yamaha...

wish tomorrow can be another happy and relaxing day for me~~~ yeah, lunch with jazz and celeste and their mum...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

完美世界

你多久没有很真诚地拥抱你身边的人了?或多久没有被一首歌,或一本书感动?多久没有和一个小孩很天真地聊天?还是多久没有不顾一切地付出,或帮助有需要的人?

这两天我想了很多。。。我说,如果这个世界上的每一个人都不顾一切地去爱着身边的人,该有多好?没有自私,没有自负,没有猜疑也没有势利的人,全心全意地为别人付出,也不会有人认为你是愚蠢的人,那么社会会不会多一些色彩?少一些黑暗?

今天教了琴,驾着车在路上游荡。。。停在红绿灯前,看着过马路的人,都是疲惫的脸,是在为现实忙碌吗?中学的,就尽是一脸‘事不关己’的模样,手上的一支手机,已经将他们锁在一个只属于他们自己的空间。小学生就只沉溺在一个叫PSP的玩意儿。

把车停下,下车逛逛,经过一间幼儿园,从窗外望进去。。。太好了,终于有一个地方是没有被污染的,天真无邪的笑着,闹着,我慧心一笑。

有个朋友告诉我,如果不知道自己将来的路怎么走,就想一想当初最早的梦想。当初是怎么开此现在的路的,我没有忘记,但是最早的那份单纯,就真的忘了。我必须再努力一点,努力地去感受,努力地去维持。。。因为‘顺风时要维持,逆风时就得坚持了’ 。

我在很努力的维持,但是有时候,还是会迷失方向,那个时候,你是不是可以包容一下?请停下脚步,等一等我,我会很快的找到出路,在出口和你会合。

我现在想练琴,怎么办?

Sunday, June 07, 2009

祝福

Dear Diary, plz help me to send all my best wishes to a friend... I dedicate this post to her.

I am glad that you have return to your warm shelter again today;

I am glad that you feel safe once more;
I can't give you much, but will pray for you day and night,
You will be fine, and continue to glow with your music... happily & bright,
& you know, i am always by your side.

Monday, May 18, 2009

@ Marina Barrage



Mei had this sudden inspiration to go to the marina barrage this evening. When we reached there, we found out that today is actually the opening of this marina barrage, it was crowded. There is this huge and tall bridge, that we can walk up, and ended up at a big field, then can see the marina site of Singapore, quite cool. It's definitely The place for 'pak toh'ing there, cos at nite, it is dark up there, only lights along the walk way, the field? total darkness... hehe.

We stayed there for a couple of hours, cos wanted to see the fireworks at 9pm.

Really a nice place, will go there again, soon.

Friday, May 08, 2009

天冷的猫

I watched two musicals lately... first, on the 3rd May 2009, the CATS. And can u believe it? i remembered the time wrongly, 我多么的懊恼, 为什么可以犯这么严重的错。那票不便宜,然后我知道他们一定不让我们进去直到中场休息。I am gonna miss half of the musical, my gosh... but, when we reach there around 7.30pm (started at 7pm), they lead us to a viewing room, lucky, we don't need to miss all half, only the first 30mins. But that viewing room, sigh... not live, it's thru speakers de... not nice at all, i still blaim myself for making this stupid mistake.

so, i didn't really enjoy the musical for the first half, but the 2nd half not bad. nice songs, nice dance, cool... so cool. one thing, the background didn't change much, other than that, not a bad watch, hehe...

2nd musical that i watched on 6th May, is a Singapore musical, at first i didn't want to watch it, cos u know, singapore 本土的,i don't know whether nice or not, don't dare to spend too much, then once i heard the OST on radio, nice wor... cos normally 新谣all listen until xian already, but they actually 从新编曲for all the 新谣, and it's nice. very jazzy and modern. So, i decided to watch it this time... and guess what, I was so touched, cos all the songs that heard when i was in teenage, all reappear in the musical, in a very different way, very cool too, and 很感动。They sing well, they are cute, of course can't compare to thoese Europe cast, but, not bad for an asian cast already. I was surprise. :) give them a smile for that.
More to come, more to come plz... i need all these for inspirations.


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

越来越接近真相

今天的中央医院似乎比往常的热闹,气氛也比较紧张,人们开始带起口罩,测量体温,在为‘预防猪流感’作准备。

今天已经是这个月的第4次,什么时候我才不需要再到SGH做检查,看医生。大半天的时间,从一开始的‘找parking' , 到看医生,或验血,或照超声波等等的检查,很累啊!老公今天还开玩笑的说,考虑在SGH租一个season parking slot. 不是吧。

但是,好像已经越来越接近真相了。为什么我那么年轻会有那么高的血压,为什么会出现水肿。应该在不久的将来,会有答案,希望如此。内分泌科的医生告诉我,我有一种荷尔蒙的测量指数很高,这种荷尔蒙可能导致水肿和血压高,但是还必须再进行另一种测试(吊盐水),加以确定,才能够针对这病作正确的治疗。希望不会有大问题。我快成为神经质了,一时紧绷,一时又告诉自己放松。唉!!

最近看了一套港剧,《与敌同行》,为了找出真相,好人冒着生命危险,接近坏人,然后再写下每一个发现的疑点,真相就会慢慢地浮现。。。然后。。。 杀杀杀杀杀!!!! 铲除坏人。呵呵,变态!

我要勇敢地找出让我不舒服的源头,然后杀杀杀杀杀。。。 一个不留!!!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

乐观积极。。。对吗?

很难改变一个人的性格吧,但我会尝试。 兵来将挡,战争才一半,难道放弃?
gambateh ne!!!

(not my baby, by the way :P )

Sunday, April 05, 2009

没有政府的日子

哈哈,老公不在家,我和妹妹正过着没有政府的日子哦,太幸福了,别羡慕。

他回老家扫墓啦,我没得回去,因为忙补课。之前生病请太多病假了,唉,不然我也还真的想陪他回去拜拜的啦,毕竟好像结婚到现在,第四个年头了,还没有去过拜拜他家的祖先。他倒是每年都陪我JB扫墓的。真希望明年可以陪他走一趟。

但是,没有政府的日子还是蛮爽的啦。就好像可以迟迟睡,可以穿得清清凉凉地在客厅看电视,毕竟这几天的天气实在是热得要命。可以和妹,驾着车到处去找好吃的,等等。本来还想看场电影,像看那个‘know1inG' 故事还蛮特别,也许是我对数字有癖好,哈哈。还有唱场karaoke, 但是基于经济的考量,还是取消了这两项节目。唯有在家里看DVD了。唉,被政府管习惯了,变乖了?

过了这个周末,又得回到补课的日子去了,还好下个礼拜有一天公共假日,可以休息休息。

I need something to inspire me, common, any concert?

送行者~礼仪师的乐章

我从来不是一个很‘电影’的人。每每都需要知道故事大纲之后才愿意花钱看电影。
礼仪师,是在日本,为往生者作人生中最后一次打扮,化妆的师傅。这个电影题材很特别,好像至今还没有任何一部电影是描述这个行业的。我认为还蛮值得看,虽然心中怕怕的。
没想到,一点也不恐怖呢,真不愧是日本制作,把电影拍得非常漂亮,干净,舒服。再融合电影的配乐,中提琴与钢琴的合奏,太美了。而且也让我对死亡,和往生者有了另一番的见解。
很值得一看的电影。

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Gosh, baby, how come you are so different from mummy?

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Wat a year~~~

Dear Dairy,


Wat la, after months of suffers, now i've recovered, well, sort off, and guess what happen to my car last Friday?





When i saw it, it was already damaged, the whole bumper dropped onto the ground. Like 'he' heard some 'jaw dropping' joke or news, watever.... At first I tot, walao... really so 'suay' this year, ppl hit and run, I got to spend extra 700plus to repair.

Then this taxi uncle came, saying that he saw who done the 'good job', then he passed me a name card, it's a car repairer's card, hmmm.... he owns a workshop? can trust or not? some more he said he already call the police for me and got picture of the lorry driver. Then cos policemen waited for me too long, went off liao, so he waited there for me to come down, got such good person nowadays?

Then he asked me to follow his taxi to his workshop, to discuss how to claim the lorry driver and repair my car for me.... scared scared, at nite, follow a stranger, to some industrial area, workshop ppl always very fierce one, and i heard ppl always say, if ur car go in there, hard to get it out liao, have to settle with lots of money, etc etc... how? how?

In the end, i called my students' mum go with me, then call haw to meet me there at the workshop, then haw went with 2 ge and another friend... luckily this time really meet some honest ppl, well, i know they got benefits out of this incidence as well, but at least they are honest with us, they settled all the insurance documents for us, we don't have to pay a cent and today, I got back my car, in good condition, nice bumper, nice touch up and nice rear light.

This year is not that bad after all, right?

Sunday, February 22, 2009

A special visit

Dear diary,
I was admitted into SGH on last Wed night. 3 days. Good experience, although they only solved my 表面上的问题。Still finding the cause of my water retention.

I was admitted into ward 64, block 6, level 4, room 19, bed 7. Anybody buying toto from these? I took the evidence, as show in the pic below.


I took the pic of the food there as well, hmmm... not bad actually, i can't say nice, but eatable.


I should have taken the pic of me with my 2 big 'briefcases'. ok the story starts like this, i told u that i got water in my body, all over my body, like a balloon, right? so, i went to hospital, the doc gave me some 'magic' pills to make me keep running to the toilet, yes, even in the night. They have to do one 24 hour check on my urine, so, i have to accumulate them, in where? not my bladder, of course, in some big, huge 5 litres, squarish container, which look exactly like a briefcase. And guess what? i used 2 of those container, within 24 hours. super right?

not only that, they are like mosquitoes, keep sucking my blood. everynite around 5am, they will wake me up to draw blood, sigh.... poke everywhere, got bruise some more.

But now, i am at home already, well, i feel good, and healthy, although they haven't find out what cause the water tank in my body, but for sure is not kidney or liver problem, not cancer either, these are the 3 that i scared the most. Let's see the follow up, hopefully can find out what happen in me.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Bull year or Blue year

Dear diary,

ok, i must start of my blog with a word... SIGH~~~~~  what's wrong with this year? since the first day of new year, everybody falls sick. 

Dear dad fall sick on the 年30晚,body ache like mad, then fever, can't move, can't eat, vomit etc etc. Dear sis fall sick on the first day of CNY, rashes all over body, body ache as well, fever, similar to dad... no need to mention about me, I am officially qualified as... 豆腐做的人, 超低抵抗力的一个胖妞。Gastric problem, or whatever problem that could be, have been bugging me for months, i loose my temper sometimes, cos frustration. Can u imagine u carrying a balloon with you all the time, and inside that balloon is full of water. Damn heavy, and also embarrassing, cos everybody starts asking me, are you pregnant? *fainted*

CNY like no CNY, no nice food for me, no nice drinks for me, no cold drinks, no tidbits nothing. 

Something to cheer for though, before the CNY, I bought a new toy, hehehe... tada~~~~ an IPhone. It's so cool loh, although the function is not as good as my previous Nokia (I still love my Nokia, it's a GPS for me now), but the IPhone is very sharp, very colourful, online everywhere, all sort of applications, cool cool cool... 

I went to Penang during CNY too.... at first i need to drive, but in the end, brother in law drove, i help a little.... but from Malacca to Singapore, hehe... dearest hubby drove, he got his licence from me already, i think this CNY he drove the most, even more than his entire driving life. I am so so pround of him. 

Penang was ok, went to 4th brother in law's house, cos this year they didn't come back to Malacca, so we decided to go there and visit them, all together 4 cars, drove up North, so cool ya. Stop together, talk together, everything together.... but too many ppl, have to wait this and wait that, to much time wasted on waiting. but who cares?  it's my holiday, suppose to relax. I didn't feel that uncomfortable during the CNY, but once coming back to Singapore, i feel the bloated once again, really don't understand why. Until today, i am still trying out new doctors, new clinic. just hope that someone can give me an answer, why my stomach so big. It's not fat hor, it's all water. hahaha... must make this clear. 

ok, got to go to bed already, good nite. 

Monday, January 19, 2009

唯一清醒得一天

亲爱的日记:

原谅我,最近颓废透了,想干什么都提不起劲,几乎是在半垂死状态。在我身边的,应该都了解事态的严重,在这里,我就不一一解释了,实在是长篇大论。今天比较清醒,就觉得自己应该来交代一下后事境况。到目前为止,我还是好好的啦,应该是在痊愈当中吧,所以请你不必担心。

在我失踪的这段日子,其实发生了很多,有值得开心的,也有。。。好啦,开心的居多。首要的,就是老公出差回来了,他很照顾我,以前认为他不可能做的事,在我生病的这段时间,发生了。老公,谢谢你!!! 我从来没有那么公开的谈论过我们俩的生活,但是这次确实让我非常地感动。细节就让我留在心里,但是妹妹知道啦~

再来,就是考试成功啦。。。别问我怎么办到的,因为就是纯粹两个字 - 侥幸- 也可能是考官心情好,要不然就是,因为我是最后一个考生,他想赶快收工,回家休息,总之,能过,一定不是我的努力,或是天分。还是那两个字,侥幸!!!但是还是要感谢一下侯老师,把她气成那样,真不好意思。

还有,就算生病,还是忍不住去看了几场Mr Ong 的演奏会,没办法,实在是cannot resist 他的魅力。但说也奇怪,每次看他的演奏会的时候都没有生病的感觉,胃也没涨,也不咳嗽,非常舒畅的感觉。

好了,我该去睡了。。。累得虚脱~