Busy busy busy...

i recovered, then i fell sick again, sis said it's due to pressure, but i don't feel anything to be serious, but she said, it happens 无声无息的。

then, to make things worse, dad and mum came visiting. I was like, what???? for all the moment, i can't fall sick in front of dad know? he is like super gan zheong one.... will start to boil this, boil that, buy this buy that for me to make me feel better, and i will feel bad, cos it's all my fault to fall sick, i drink cold, i eat spicy, i on air con cold cold, i sleep late etc etc....

and and and.... it was class hour last Sunday, and it's the final class hour that i get to attend b4 my exam, which mean i can't afford to miss it, and i have to play like 2 mega exam pieces, which i seldom practise when i was ill, and i always can't finish playing them cos it needs too much concentration and stamina, see? how miserable my life was during the long weekend? but one thing cheer me up, a concert try out at mr ong's house...

Mr ong is having a violin, piano duet with Mr Jin Li on the 2nd of Nov, and it was melting me when i listen to the try out just now... fantastic, they both match so well... techniques are so good, music are good too... whoever reading this, plz go and watch the recital, it's really a 'won't regret' thingy!!!

Back fr. Hell~

I am back, I am back.... have been sometimes i was away~ I went somewhere, loitering there, and back now. I am so glad that i return safely.

Today was... er.... quite happening for me. Walked the whole day basically, make up lesson in the morning, yes, it's a Sunday and i need to work. why? cos i went loitering for a few weeks. and now i am back, i need to work. ok... make up in the morning, then went to shop for a laptop, not for myself, but my husband. and... yeah~~~ he bought a Toshiba. A very superb cool look, shinning shinning one. Very chio~ and he is gonna bring this chio little thingy to Australia. Yes, he is going there again, i will be free for a month plus, but I got better things to do than loitering around. I need to practise, sigh... don't remind me about exam. I am freaking.

Not scared one la, i always tell my students. sigh.... ok, sorry guys, i take back my words. I feel so bad. sorry teacher. I went shopping today, and my teacher sent me a sms... saying : I bet u are working hard to practise your piano, i know u can play well, jia you!!! <--- see? I feel so bad. I was too tensed up, and i don't feel like touching the piano at all. I mean... AT ALL!!!

anyway~~~ I will try, don't care, and chiong ah~~~~~ practise for 3 hours tomorrow, how about that? 3 hours are consider little ok! Mr Ong, such a busy old man, so pro somemore, and he practises 5 hours a day! sorry sorry... SORRY!!! ( i feel like crying, i feel like hiding in a cave, i feel like i am not a good 榜样 for my students!)

Sh*tty Holiday

Sigh.... I am back. I started with a long sighhh... there is a reason for it.

By the way, I am back in Singapore already, I was lost in action for a week or so cos, i really really had a bad week back in KL. Well, I am glad that my parents are beside me when i was 'down'. Down as in, really dead down on the bed, super sick ler....

At first already cough like don't know what... then went to see doc in KL, he gave me some super strong antibiotics, which my stomach cannot take it at all. So, my stomach feel bloated for don't know how many days, until today loh... i think about 6 days already. Can u imagine your stomach like a balloon, gonna burst in any minute, and yet, u still have to carry it around. I couldn't breath properly, cos of the gassy feeling inside me. I couldn't sleep properly, when i was lying on the bed, i feel so bad, i can't breath... sigh, really bad feeling for me.

I can't eat strong taste food, I feel like throwing up after eating. I feel dizzy in the day time, slept in the living room, on a metal 'teh-yi'.

And worse... I was suppose to rush down to JB for my class hour on Sunday, and guess what? i remember the flight time wrongly, and I missed the flight, ended up, staying in KL, was that a sign? cos Sunday nite was the worst of all, i vomit and cough non stop, if i was in teacher's house, will sure scared her away.

Monday, came back to Singapore, the gassy feeling still inside me, for the 2nd time, i went to a doc. but the doc was too concentrate on my cough and blood pressure, he didn't say much about the gastric problem, so, i carried the balloon with me for another 2 days. then 3rd time to the Doc. which was this morning... and i make sure he check me up for the gastric prob. Another 3 bags of medicine....

really hope that all the gas in my stomach will just disappear tomorrow morning... by burping, by farting, whatever... just get rid of all the gas. I cannot stand it anymore...

oh ya, another thing, i pierced my ears, like finally ya. Now i can say, it's not painful at all.... hehehe, at least something to make me smile in these terrible days.

@ Home

I am back in my kl home, it's good to be home, can relax, rest. Actually this time, i am suppose to practice piano at home, hours and hours, but i find it actually quite hard to do so.

The TV is basically on from 9am till late at nite, although my parents didn't complain about anything, but i just feel not right to torture their ears, u know, when u are practising, it's not very promising.

2ndly, the piano is like.... my gosh, super out of tune, i can even tell by bare ears, very bad condition, well, as a very 'chin chai' pianist, i don't really care, so, that will make the torture worse, just imagine all the sounds are crashing, and i am playing the 20th cent pieces, super crash, like 2 bullet trains crashing into each other.

then is the weather... extremely warm ok, make me feel like sleeping. I fell asleep even playing the computer, and that NEVER happen to me.

and i am still coughing badly, every time when i am practising the piano, i just feel that i cannot catch my breath properly, i hold the breath until the end of the piece. especially the moderato and nocturne by Britten. Why must use so much strength? i got no strength leh.... then why must play so quietly? it's hard to control u know... sigh... so, at the end, my Britten become.... PINK COLOUR~~~ and teacher said i very 恶心。 我也不想的啊。救命啊~~~~

OK... 以上的都是借口，我一定会好好地练琴的，Sunday is another class hour, sigh.... i am gonna play the whole of the Haydn sonata, will i be able to?

I miss you~

We had a nice long chat, after all these months, all these years.... with a cup of warm tea in my hand, it's nice... i miss those days when we were together.

• we used to talk on the phone, share our things
• i used to go to your place, stay a peaceful afternoon there before starting to work
• we used to cook breakfast at my place, still remember your fried tomato and crumble egg
• we used to work at the same school, having lunch and dinner together...
• we used to do so many things together, then we lost each other.
• and now.... we've found each other again and wish our friendship last forever

心情0908

我又打败仗了，喉咙依然刺痛，大伤风，怎么那么差劲。

上个礼拜，去了JB，住了一夜，和阿松，卓乐闹了一个晚上，和他们一起游泳。他们是第一次在condo的泳池游泳，阿松好棒，一点都不畏惧，很喜欢水，玩得都不愿意上岸。然后晚上还提灯笼，两个小男孩笑得多么开心，太可爱了。

回到新加坡，就病倒了，躺了两天，糊里糊涂地，睡得天昏地暗，连日子都差点忘记了。今天头脑比较可以思考的时候，竟然以为九月就要过去了，以为自己已经没有时间，以为学生们的笔试就要到了，更以为我的考试也已经逼近。是不是太离谱了？是不是压力大？还是被一些周围的事情影响了心情？

是的，我很容易被别人或者别的事情影响，哪怕是一部连续剧，一首歌，一篇文章，还是一个人的一句话。最近看了一部比较悲的戏，哭得稀里哗啦，满脑子都是戏里的人，事，物。很难抽离。我是不是应该离开电脑一下下，让心情平复，沉淀，直到。。。。几时？唉~

其实，一直以来，我都是认为自己是幸运的，想要得到的东西，不用太努力就可以拥有，但是会不会有一天，幸运不再眷顾我，让我自身自灭？我还没有学会珍惜呢。。。会不会太迟了呢？

A long lost friend

haha... until just now, about 10pm, my mood got better a little... well, maybe due to "too much sleeps" syndrome, i had a bad mood, since this morning... hardly smile. but just now, i called a long lost friend, i have been looking for her for sometimes, i hated myself of loosing her contact number, but i found it eventually, on some old newspaper cuttings, fated or what?

I was soooooo happy that i found her again, we chatted on the phone, happily, i am so glad to hear that she is happy now... and also she picks up piano once again, very very glad and touched.

we will meet up one day right? to catch up watever that we lost b4?

lets work hard together, leading a better life, shall we? I am a happy gold fish~~~

愚蠢的天秤座

该死的天秤座性格让我moody 了好几天。基本上，天秤座的人，就是一个‘烂’好人。他们不能够忍受——某某人不喜欢我——的想法。只要知道一个人对他有负面的意见，天秤座的人就会难受得不得了。

这几天，我就切切实实地感受并证实了这一点。虽然说我已经非常了解自己到底是一个什么样的人，但是就是没有办法改正过来。

前两天，因为要把事情做好（又是天秤在作怪），就假厉害地帮mr. ong 安排让我一个学生见他的时间，结果产生了一些误会。mr. ong sent 来了一封听起来还蛮生气的SMS。就是这封SMS让我的天空灰灰暗暗的，好像生病的感觉，然后好几天，我都不敢主动再和他联络。我非常地沮丧，脑海里一直不断的想，不断的责怪自己为什么处事那么不小心。

就因为心里难受，再不解决这个僵局，我的眼泪一定决堤，心脏一定爆炸，然后我身边的人一定遭殃。所以我就发了一封简讯，势必要打破这个僵局，mr. ong 的reply 是这样的——ok, no prob, my dear friend——原来他没有把事情放在心上，没有生我的气，顿时，放下了心中大石，phew~~~

看吧，这就是所谓的——天秤座症候群。。。超幼稚的，但是真的，我想改变，改掉这个自己吓自己的习惯，然后轻轻松松的，什么都不想，什么都不假设，但是真的改不了。

勇敢迈向梦想

有人告诉我，说我可以让兴趣变成工作，是非常幸福的事。是的，但是你知不知道，我也是绕了好大一圈，克服好多的挫败感，才得到今天的一切。虽然还不是非常成功，但是，我已经很满足了。学习钢琴的这条路，虽然我走得比别人轻松一点，但是自己也是经过很多的挣扎。就音乐，尤其是古典的，就让很多人误解，要靠这个赚钱，很多人就认为根本不可能。但是，我说你们都错得太离谱了。现在是什么样的一个社会，很多艺术家都已经改变自己的脾气来迎合这个现实的都市。现在真的会有赚不了生活的艺术家吗？ 现在的艺术家，音乐家，钢琴家，已经不一样了。

当然，要到‘家’毕竟还有一段距离，而这段距离，绝对不是短的，也不是平坦的。但是如果你喜欢音乐，享受它，那还不容易到‘家’吗？最重要的是，理性分析自己要的是什么，坚持自己的理念，勇敢地迈向自己的梦想。

是谁不曾被说过练琴很吵？
是谁不曾被说过教琴没饭吃？
是谁不曾被说过教琴不稳定？

但是，是不是这样就放弃理想？然后一辈子都过着自己不喜欢的生活，做着自己不喜欢的工作，然后不出10年就开始厌倦，厌恶人生。

如果是这样，我宁愿开开心心的吃面包，也不要流着眼泪吃鱼翅。这不是艺术家的脾气，只是一个人对自己的责任，就是让自己开心。

我已经订下一个目标，正努力地迈向我的下一个里程碑，你呢？

璀璨的烟花

I went for fireworks last nite... with haw, mei, JeeJeen and JY family. this year, we've got the best place to watch the fireworks, it's on a hippo, yes, in the Singapore River we were, chatting, laughing, waiting for the show to start. Really good show, i think we are going to book a hippo every year for the fireworks, cos that's really the best place to watch. Anyone interested? remember, next year Aug, look for me, and i will reserve a place for u :)

I didn't really take much pic of the fireworks though, cos i was too excited and forgot to take pic of it, wanna pay more attention to the show. But we took loads of pic b4 the show, will upload it later on.

一个决定

我想，我是经过深思熟虑才下了这个决定的，应该不会后悔，全力以赴吧！！！

30年的一堵墙

今天，我突破了一项纪录。我30年来，第一次写信给爸爸。听起来好像很奇怪，但是的确。我写了一封蛮长的‘电子家书’给爸爸。

我的爸爸，赋予我一个可爱的小康之家，有求必应的他让我和弟妹们的童年过得非常的充实和饱满。他是我一生中，最尊敬的人。尊敬得几乎是怕他，不说不知，我这个天不怕地不怕的女人，凶巴巴的，谁踩着了我的尾巴，就好像疯狗一样的乱咬的人，非常害怕自己的爸爸，一个既温和，又有礼的男人。我们聊天的话题，永远离不开天气和工作这些表面的东西。

刚才，我的心情很澎湃，再加上妹妹的鼓励，我决定给爸爸写封家书。虽然事情后来解决了， 但是我还是决定给爸爸写封信。因为这是一个非常好的机会，打破一个30年都直立不倒的一堵墙。

Welcome home!!!

yeah, i am so happy, my husband is finally back home, more than 2 months, my gosh... how did i manage? but i guess, just got to get used to it, in fact, i become more independent, now that he is back, i can be dependent again, hehe...

along with his return, of course.... PRESENTSSS!!!! my gift no.1 got to be that 100ml perfume, named miracle, i always wanted to buy this perfume, luckily never, cos i am so happy he actually willing to buy me this, he always think that perfume is something very wasteful, not worth the price.

gift no.2..... which i didn't have any clue b4 i saw it from his luggage, a big time surprise.... a pair of Nike sandals.... gee, he actually bring that all the way from Sydney... i am so touched!!! Thank you so much darling.

one little crystal dolphin, for my car deco

one kangaroo soft toy

one dolphin that can strink and expend to about 600% of the original size when put into water, cool ya, i haven try it yet, but i think i will be fun to play with it.

one dolphin that have super strong magnet on it... yeah, i know, he super like dolphin, and also cos i am xiao yu, i leave in water, so i love sea creature too, dolphins are my favorite.

a few badges, soft toys, and some little aeroplane and have sound and lights.. very cute as well. I will give that little aeroplane to my beloved sister, she will scream and love it!!!

and a good news~~~ haw got promoted... i am so happy, all the good things and good news are following him home, bring me happiness... i am gonna be sleepless tonite.

吞噬。。。在深夜~~

琴缘一生

在胡文雁的《咏叹调》里发现了一本书，叫《琴缘一生》，非常感兴趣，但是新加坡好像买不到了，上网打听打听，原来台湾有在卖，就想起一个学生就在台湾。用MSN和他联系了一下，拜托他帮我买。他答应了之后，就一直兴奋得不行。

那天和Mr. Ong 谈起想要拥有这本书的欲望，他竟然说可以借我他的那本，还有Ruth Slenczynska 的亲笔签名的《琴缘一生》，现在，已经在我手里。

我已经没有看书一段日子了，从前，每天的生命里都不可能没有书的陪伴。但是好像自从太久都找不到一本能够打动人心的书之后，我就把这个兴趣搁在一边。但是现在我找到了，我已经开始在阅读这本《琴缘一生》，才只不过开了短短的20页，就已经忍不住要和人分享，当然，身边天天出现，又懂得音乐，又挥之不去的，就只有妹妹咯！我每看一段感动的，就和她分享，但是她好像觉得我很烦。。。实在是不懂得欣赏的家伙。

我好喜欢作者写作的手法，幽默又不失内涵，还附有太多太多的钢琴技巧，那也只不过是20页的内容，可想而知，读完整本，我将会是何等的获益匪浅。

太感谢mr. ong了，他一再的提醒我要好好地保护这本书，因为是他的'aunty Ruth Slenczynska' 亲笔签名再送给他的。。。我会好好的保护，放心吧~

在这里介绍给大家，因为真的是一本让人热血沸腾，感动到不行的一本好书！！！

The Mozart Exhibition

Went to the mozart exhibition with teacher and her 2 sons, 卓乐 & 松乐。。。 they are so cute, don't believe me? the pictures say it all... especially when they were in Mozart's costumes, the wigs, really sooooo adorable. I feel like biting them, hehe, no la, just joking.

Evening, i went to a most 'jaws drop' class hour, at Mr. Ong's house. i never know a young kids like 7 years old, 13 years old, can play that fast, the fingers are like... robotic man. Techniques are superb, most expressive, most musical. ok, i must start to practice my piano, i mean, thoroughly. Another sleepless nite to me, everytime after i watch something inspired, i will get very high, and feel like playing the piano for the whole nite, too excited to rest. But too bad, eventhough i don't need to sleep, other ppl does, i can't practically play the piano in the middle of the nite. sigh... will just get myself settle down on the bed then~~~

The JB trip~

我的天

oh my my my~~~~ i was soooo impressed with the masterclass today, i learn sooo much, really. especially mr. ong's teaching method, a lot of methods are new to me, all the techniques, i never know those techniques can be thought this way! now, i can teach my students with all those explanation or 'secrets' as mr. ong said. He said he has lots and lots of 'secrets' to make his playing so wonderful....

I was nervous, he can tell. I was shaking, as usual... but luckily he didn't give any 'harsh' comment about my performing. phew~~~~ it's over!!! IT'S OVER!!! i am so free... and i feel happy, after masterclass, had dinner with mr. ong, then supper.... syok syok~~~

幸福的一天

啊，我得赶快完成这天的故事。。。现在已经是11.53pm 了，要来不及了。

ok, 今天非常幸福，也充实。。。 因为我在JB呆了大半天，基本上是跟老师粘在一起大半天。我很喜欢和她一起的感觉，她告诉我很多关于音乐方面的故事，我喜欢听，因为我知道，这些都不是在上课的时候可以学到的。那，我也可以和我的学生们分享一些我觉得有趣的故事。

一大早，我当然是练琴啦，因为一直到今天，我还走不出上个星期天那个masterclass 的阴影。就老是觉得自己弹得很烂，昨天在家还特别的练了好几十遍。今天早上再练，因该不下30遍吧。然后老师近来听。。。还是没有什么contrast, balancing 也不明显。ok.... 再练。。。

终于，老师第二次近来听的时候，哈哈。。。 可以了，balance very obvious, contrasts are better.... yahooo~~~~ 太高兴了，但是我知道我自己的问题，其实已经弹得above average 了，只是我有‘上台表演恐惧症’哈哈。。。真有这病吗？现在就只希望星期六，一切都顺利，不渴望得到mr. ong 的大赞赏，只要不丢脸就好了。。。唉，要求真低啊！！！

祝福我吧~ 我需要的~~

被吓倒

you know, yesterday i went for another class hour... suppose to be something like the master class. but the maestro is my teacher. My very first time to attend a masterclass, so i didn't know that not just teacher need to comment on my performance, but also all the audience. of course i need to comment on other ppl's performance as well. sigh sigh.... i got terrible stage fright. it's my 死穴。ended up, my hands, my legs, my body, all shaking while performing... 弹得乱七八糟。老师还叫我从弹。唉！！！

明明在家练习的时候，已经是百分之一百的没有错误，但是一紧张，就又断谱，又错音，一塌糊涂。已经是对那份谱熟悉得不得了，还是不行，下个礼拜的masterclass, 不知道可以不可以活着走出大堂。需不需要先吃一粒镇定剂哈？

我很怕叻，心情完全不能平复下来，这个星期该怎么过？学生的考试又在眼前了。。。 压力压力压力。。。 ARGHHHH~~~~~ 压力啊！！！！！

Kungfu Panda

Me and sis went to watch kungfu Panda, hahaha, superb, it's so funny... i can't help and can't stop laughing till now... i love the blur blur look of his. and his fur, feel like running to the screen and just jump into the movie, and HUGGGGG him.... must be very comfy to hug him.

My TiBo

I have a new toy, this is it, my tibo A1200i, my very cool GPS system, ya? yeah!!!! I am gonna use it for my KL trip tomorrow, so excited.

I am not gonna miss any entrance anymore, i am not going to lost my way and ended up in some army camp anymore, i am not going to follow the 海岸线 and make a big round trip of singapore, just to get from Bukit Timah to Ang Mo Kio anymore.... yeah!!! I am the route expert now, ask me ba!!!

报告

u know, i went swimming the other day, after like so many years. so, i went swimming, well, it's only 4 laps, but that's enough to kill me, the next day, i really really feel that, i am just one huge potato, i can't feel my hands, my arms, my legs, so, one big potato.

My 'trip' to Sydney

New Born Baby

sometimes, u will just find yourself in a mess. The room is in a mess, the car is in a mess, the kitchen is messy, hand writing is weird, cannot talk properly, brain not functioning etc etc, and at last, u will lose yourself in all these mess.

This happen to me once in a while, i don't know the periodic time is how long, but once a while i will feel very very extremely lost and down, can just burst into tears for nothing, scold ppl around me for nothing. But i got my own way to solve all these sh*t of mine. Some ppl will say i am just giving excuses, but i know, i am NOT!!! ok.

These few days i didn't post, cos, i was busy tidying up myself, everything, starting from the room, then the drawers, clear all the pile and pile of laundry, guess what? my life was messy, everything messy, even my wardrobe collapsed, can u believe that? the whole iron bar fell off, so, i cleared the wardrobe as well, all those that i never wear anymore, pack pack pack and send them all back to KL. Throw so many things, till today, i am still throwing. but it's much better already, i don't feel lost anymore. I am in one piece again, I am once again a happy woman~~~

I am so lost

gee~~~ i am so lost recently, i lost my handphone pouch, i lost my vitamin C, i even lost my haydn piano score!!!! how can i lose that? i still need it, i need to practise for the masterclass, and now, I LOST IT!!!!!

i use another version of the score for piano lesson this morning, so not used to that score, so kena scolding from teacher, she thought that i never practise, but true also la, i really never touch the piano for 3 days. I even lost myself in this, i don't know how to play piano with heart anymore, my pieces left black and white only, no colours at all, no expressions, no feelings, sigh sigh... how?? someone help me, i used to be so proud of my expressiveness in music, and now, i lost all of them.

i cried just now, while listening to beethoven violin sonata, spring. i don't know why all of the sudden, while driving, i just cried. looked at the sky, it's dark, gonna rain soon, just like my heart now...

i don't know who to go to, i usually am the one that comfort others, i don't know who can understand me. gee... help me!! i am drowning.

你有没有那么迷失过。不只是心灵上的，就是开始找东西，好像身边的东西都躲着我似的，也不一定什么都真的不见了，有时候还是会找回来的，但是我的音乐好像真的找不回，不管我怎么练，它就只是一棵一棵的音符，一点生命力都没有。也不美，也不丑，但就是平凡。怎么都突破不了，怎么办，多一个星期又是class hour 了，然后月尾就是masterclass，我会有突破吗？

每次有这种感觉的时候，都会来个大扫除，希望把一些多余，没用的东西都丢掉，这次好像没有什么帮助，而且更严重了。什么东西都找不到。救命！！！！

7.30am 蓝色的飞机场

今天早上，飞机场是蓝色的。因为，我亲爱的老公被公司派去澳洲公干两个多月，70天的日子，我会好好的过吗？唉~~~

现在他在30000英尺的高空有想念我吗？还是忙着和漂亮的空姐聊天。。。 唉~~~

澳洲寒冷的天气他会习惯吗？不会病倒吧，会自己照顾自己吧。。。 唉~~~

蓝色的飞机场怎么变得水汪汪了？唉~~~

期待粉红色的飞机场，在70天后出现。。。

可爱的大师

我见到他了，认识他了。。。 他是王立达，一位我想认识很久很久的人，大师级的演奏家及钢琴老师。

当候老师告诉我他的种种，我就对这位大师起了很大的兴趣。希望认识他，让他在我的心中不再神秘。终于，昨天晚上，我认识他了，和候老师一起到他的家去吃晚饭。撇开一桌子的好菜不说（都是他亲手烹饪的，不敢相信吧！）他的性格真的深深的吸引着我，多么开朗的个性，多么幽默的一个人，太妙了，吃完饭，要离开的时候，是多么的不舍，踏出他的家门，门关上的那一刻，就已经想念他了，想念和他一起的时光。

我想，现在已经认识了，如果我坚持的话，以后还有很多机会向他学习。所以我一定要坚持走下去，我这条钢琴的路。

自然生态 vs. 专家

数以万计的蟾蜍，上演了一部‘大搬迁’，这个画面也许会让你感到不舒服，但是，这的确发生在四川大地震前的一个礼拜左右。

这奇特的景象，也确实让一些村民感到惶恐和不安。认为这可能是一次大灾害的预兆。

然而，请教专家的结果却是：‘这哪是什么灾害的预兆，这可是一种自然现象，因为这里的土质与水的温度非常适合蟾蜍的繁殖，所以它们才“举家搬迁”到这儿来。’

一个星期之后，四川发生大地震，这是巧合，还是自然生态给的预兆，有待思考。

my baba & mama... visiting

Masterclass

Gosh, i am going to Ong Lip Tat's masterclass in June, i really cannot believe this, can i survive thru 3 class hours and eventually attending the masterclass? I need to memorise the piece, gosh, my worse ability. My memory sucks~~~

But according to teacher, this is once in the life time golden opportunity, do i affort to let it just slip thru my fingers? I think i will regret for my whole life if i reject the offer, oh man, i am kinda excited, and nervous from my hair to the bottom of my feet, jia lat, i already don't know what i am talking about, i wanted to go!!!!!! but am i good enough? i am scared that mr ong will just stop my performance and chase me out from the hall, sigh, will that nitemare happen to me? or maybe i will be his fav pupil, hahahahaha, dreaming!!! not because i play very well, but because of my 无厘头-ness... haha, teacher once mention, we are so alike, she said i talk like mr. ong.

oh mama, i need to work harder, i need to memorise the piece man, ok, dictation starts tomorrow morning 7am. (only if i can wake up so early) as u know, it's already 1.48am, i don't think i can wake up at 7am haha, ok, maybe after my 10am student.

感动

刚上完钢琴课。。。本来就是一种压力，再加上根本没有足够的练习，每一次都是用混的。自己都感觉惭愧。老师是不错的，感觉上我的进度很慢，但是真的学了不少的技巧。一些以前都自己摸索的东西，现在是由一个老师来告诉你，哪里是对的，哪边是需要改进的，感觉不一样。多了一份安全感。

像我这种人，每天就是教教教教教。。。 没有时间去看一场音乐会，就算有，看了之后也没有人可以交流一下，根本学不了。但是，每当老师示范给我听的时候，哪怕是一小段，一页，或几个小节，都是一种感动。因为，马上就可以听出我弹的和她弹的不一样。倒不是我不好，但是就算是同一首曲子，因为表达的方式不一样，出来就感觉不一样。

今天，老师弹了一页piano sonata in e minor, 3rd movement, by haydn，是感动到不行的那种。她是怎么办到的？一个平时很严谨，严肃的人，弹起这种快乐的曲子的时候，就像小孩一样。我完全可以看到那个画面，蓝蓝的天空，碌碌的大草原， 天边挂着彩虹，五颜六色的花丛，活泼的蝴蝶，和一个活泼乱跳，带点小顽皮的小男孩，就是这样的画面。凭着这个画面，加上她指间流出来的音符，我的眼眶湿了，整个身体是热的，鸡皮疙瘩起得乱七八糟的。。。

我下定决心，必须把这首曲子弹好，因为我太喜欢它了。

The National Library

guess where did i go last saturday? tada~~~ The National Library @ Bugis

The Building, it's bigggg and tallll.























the iSouvenir, eKiosk and the computer. 3 auto selling, auto paying and auto searching machine in the library.

哪一个杯子？

有3个杯子，一个空的，一个装了一半的水，另一个则是装满了水，请问，哪一个杯子比较幸福呢？

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答案：CupB..... 因为。。。幸福‘没’满！哈哈

Half day trip

昨晚睡得迟，今天醒得迟。。。是一种恶性循环。醒来的时候，已经过了早餐时间。但是今天妹并没有tag着我们，所以100%的两人世界，从我们醒来那一刻开始。今天去了两个地方,

1) Orchard Road's Popular bookstore
2) VivoCity

我们是冲着Popular的搬迁大减价去的，20%的折扣实在是难以抗拒。我买了一盒铅笔，因为很久没有用铅笔了，就一并买了一个sharpener。当然还有一些有的没的。

这就是我买的那个sharpener. 我喜欢是因为它有一个盖子可以保护sharpener的刀片没有那么容易生锈，并且有一个空间能够把削出来的铅笔‘皮’收起，然后再拿去垃圾桶倒掉，很方便不是吗？ 然后万万没有想到。。。











然后万万没有想到。。。我不是买了一盒铅笔吗？竟然有送一个sharpener哩。就是这个黄黄的。然后，老公就骂我笨，怎么没看见就又买多一个sharpener.... 唉。。。 就在叹息期间。。。

Tada... 黄黄的sharpener 竟然fit perfectly in the casing... amazing right? so, i am not 笨after all
wahahaha.... ok, after orchard road, we decided to go vivo city for dinner, wanna eat the Hong Kong 茶餐厅。


<---- this is the prove, we really went to vivocity, (prove for what... sigh, 无聊透顶。）

<---- haha... saw this in one of the shop in vivo, 像不像翻版的小鱼老师呢? 我可是做了一些手脚，加了副眼镜，但是，pai seh la， 胸部实在是没办法，photoshop 可是没有什么iron function. 没办法把它们‘弄’平。















<---- they are cute too, from the same shop.

The birthday gal~

oh... just came back from jaz's birthday party, and here are the pictures i took, oh, this is call good efficiency or what, haha.

super 热闹， 都是jaz的同班同学。大家喊啊闹的，实在开心，我想是平时被繁重的功课压抑得太久了，待到机会就趁机‘疯’一下。

唉，这次还是被硬拱上去表演了一下，我想下次如果再参加这种生日派对的时候，真的必须准备准备。

回到家，开了电脑，就‘啪’的一下，倒在温暖的床上，竟然睡着了，真的是‘啪’的不省人事。然后和睡意‘打架’了一下，我醒了。here i come, blogging.

天空

没有下雨，没有太阳的天空真让人期待啊。但是这样的天空好像撑不了多久啊，果然，30秒内，即下。。。 哗啦啦的倾盆大雨。

A future doctor

My brother, a doctor-to-be, aren't you proud of him? sobz sobz.. tears of happiness are sliding down my cheeks, :)

my-signatures.blogspot.com

i've changed some elements in this blog, first, i added a picture, obvious right? 2ndly, cos the picture sort of cover part of my blog's title, so, i shifted it to the right site. &&&& i even changed the website of it, u know why? my previous one (dailies-me.blogspot.com) very confusing, even myself don't know whether got 2 'L' s or 2 'I' s... then one day, my friend said, hey, can't find your blog la, then i gave her the address, still cannot find... 原来 she typed 2 L...

so i 下定决心, must change the website address to.... ta da~~~

http://my-signatures.blogspot.com

Tiny Tunes

ok, i have this very good music programme for children aged 4 to 6, it's a group lesson that my teacher established.

can learn a lot of things in it, reading notes, listening, rhythms, orchestra instruments etc etc, like a compact programme, after this 2 years programme, children can go straight into individual lesson, piano, violin etc etc, and won't give that individual teacher problems like, cannot read notes, no pitching, can't hear music in head.

anyone interested? that lesson will be held in bukit timah road, time, monday 2pm. interested plz leave me a comment and i will reply asap, thanks~~~

My cooking day!

ok, today i cooked BKT. well, ok la, not very impress, cos i already used to the good taste of my cooking, wahahaha.... anyway, i got a guest today, jee jeen, my sis's friend. She came over for dinner, after that we fetched her home, cos she needs a car to send her table from the old flat to the new one.

The process of un-done the table was so hilarious loh, well, the table got 4 legs, hmm... obviously, but with that 4 legs attaching the table top, we will not beable to fit it into the car, so we need to detach the 4 legs, and each leg has 5 screws to make it attaching the table top, if we need to detach the 4 legs, we got to unscrew 20 screws. Tat's tiring, cos the screw driver given is like super short, very hard to use. In conclusion, it's superrrrrrrr difficult and a lot of hassle to unscrew that 20 screws...

after detaching 2 legs, which took like about 15mins, then we realised, oh, we don't have to unscrew those screws, just turn the legs, and it's detached. well, i know it's confusing, but actually, it's superrrrrrr easy to un-done the whole table, u only need to use approximately less than 3 mins, WHATTTTT!!! all of us, haw, mei, jee jeen and I laughed like crazy, stup*d right? gee~~~~ anyway, that's about it. sigh, i am wu liao...

me: i wonder why recently so many parents want to start their kid with piano lesson...
Haw: cos it's getting cold (weather) nowadays, keep raining...
me: ????? what's the relationship between weather and piano lesson?
Haw: cos when u buy a piano, it free with a heater
me: -_-!!!

Busy me..

哇，你知道什么是忙到要吐吗？？？ 你应该过一过我这种日子，驾车驾到要吐，已经驾到盲目了，就是到达目的地之后，再回想，yi? 我是怎么来到的？就是这种感觉，恐怖不？连自己怎么开车到达目的地的都不知道。课排得满满的。。。学校假期，然后补课补课补课。。。 永无止境的补课。。。 anyway... 我还是开心的啦，因为我喜欢我的工作，刚才以上的，都是一些唠叨而已。老公说，我有一份全世界最好的工作，这句话也无形的在鼓励着我向前。。。

再加上，最近jia ying 又喜欢钢琴了，他有一段时间非常排斥钢琴，他说，凡是和钢琴扯在一起的歌曲，电影，书本，感觉，一切一切，他都讨厌。我听了，真的非常痛心。一样我自己喜欢的东西，到别人眼里，口中，是这么的不堪，感觉不好受。如果换成别人，可能我已经告诉他的妈妈说如果他没有兴趣，就不用浪费金钱和时间，赶紧drop 掉会比较好，但是偏偏是jia ying， 因为他很有天分，我不舍得让他放弃钢琴，我想他以后一定会后悔的，所以我撑下去。

那天，他要换掉他的baby 钢琴，我陪他去选了一下，当他看见那么大的一间warehouse，里面全都是钢琴的时候，我看见他的眼睛里闪着光，兴奋得跑上跑下，这里试试，那里试试。我心里多么的感动。他还是喜欢钢琴的，他的眼神出卖了他之前的叛逆。但是那天，他没有买着任何一架钢琴。他的新钢琴是在另一家买的，今天去他家上课，他东介绍，西介绍，介绍他新买的玩具一般，语气里透露着兴奋的心情，我当下非常感动。真希望我能够让我所有的学生都喜欢钢琴。

心情0208

当你关上门，关了灯，电脑打开着，播着一些老情歌，一些陪你走过岁月的歌，手上的一杯热的中国茶，然后在思考一些无关痛痒而且无聊的东西，很享受，是不是？

然后，我突然记得，还有乐理功课，还有没改完的乐理，还有没练习完的曲子。。。 唉~~~ na ah nei~~~

忙碌的生活让我已经忘记如何去享受一杯热热的中国茶，每次喝茶，都是冲冲茫茫地把它灌进肚子，已经习惯很快的喝，很快的吃，很快。。。 很快，什么都是快的。快得不健康，快得没有效率， 快得已经停不下脚步。

其中一个鼠年的愿望，就是每天晚上，泡杯热茶，然后慢慢地喝它一个晚上。 然后把夜晚和白天。。。 分开来。白天不得不快的脚步，已经不可能再停下来，唯有在夜晚，把步伐调慢，拿个平衡，这样应该比较健康。

The CNY 2008

The year of Rat~~~

sorry for the BOOM in the activities in this blog, it's all because i abandoned this blog for too long and 神经质地忽然很想给他博客一下。
以下是在新年期间拍的照片。。。 =新年快乐=

Haha, i've just setup my mobile bloging, isn't it cool? Next time i can just blog from my beloved N82... This is just a testing msg, ignore it if you are not interested.

in short...

i missing for a while, thought of abandon this place already, well, but i got motivated again, by my dad, haha... he actually read all these, can u believe it? he is learning computer now, as in, learn by himself, not from courses. 佩服佩服。。。

ok.. everytime, when it comes to year end, events will start pilling up, so, in shorts, after the year end concert, i went to hong kong, ate a lot, met Flora, one of my best friend during the uni.

After Hong Kong, i came back, started to arrange the new timing for students, busy with my work, then bought a new toy, my nokia n82, played and excite by it till now, then Chinese new year, went back to melaka, kl, then back to melaka, and now, back in Singapore, started work for 4 days already, everything just so... er.... expected. boring huh~~~

oh ya, haw signed up starhub cable tv, which will make me less online, but also less practising for my piano, and less doing my theory homework, hmmm... is that good or bad?

新年过了，我默默地计划鼠年的一切，但是我自问是一个自律性很低的人，不知道我的这盘计划将会维持多久，但是我会尽量，好不好？